For some moments I feel like I am content in my body, and then when I go to a party (people I don't know; not family but some party), and see all the girls I go all jealous inside. I think to myself if I was a girl, I would be the best looking one there was in here. This is with girls around my age, late teens and early twenties. I guess I am the ugliest girl that ever existed mentally.
earlier that day....
Then there was this distant cousin (this was at a family party) that I just found out I had, and I was jealous of him because he has a face of a woman and is 5'4 or something. He's not a shrimp, nor ugly. He was 26 years old, and had no facial hair or anything (he can't grow it). I later found out that he was born with one testicle, and his father was infected with some Asian disease from war that cause the stunt of testosterone in his kid. He look at me and look the other way (jealous of me I don't know) as quickly as I noticed that he was staring (this happened like 5 times).
But he was lucky (to me but I know he isn't) because if he tried to pass off as a girl he could, but for him I know he thinks its a curse (I would think). He looks like a guy because his body isn't shape like a woman much, no breast or anything. But he has wide hips, and narrow shoulders. It's still a guy's body, but his voice sounds like 16, not 26. He's living in a body of a 16 year old guy (with a feminine body frame). It's shocking really to find out he's 26, since I thought he was like 16 or 15 even, and short.
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it happens....and all too frequently.
When I go to the mall, I see so many girls, so young, so full figured, and i think.....why couldn't I have been born that way...
it's simply not fair...that they should be born with that body and not me....
i don't know that i'll ever get used to it, but that's the way the cards were dealt....
This is common in all women. The primary currency of womanhood is looks. And women's sport is competing against each other lookswise.
Quote from: Nero on July 12, 2009, 06:32:20 AM
This is common in all women. The primary currency of womanhood is looks. And women's sport is competing against each other lookswise.
I would imagine that goes the same for men as well Nero?
Quote from: Naturally Blonde on July 13, 2009, 06:48:43 PM
I would imagine that goes the same for men as well Nero?
don't know. never really saw men compete in the looks game. course, guess I'll find out once I pass! :laugh:
Men to to compete in more realistic stuff: status, jobs, titles, and money in some secret man-only balance. I don't think that most men care about how many six pack abs, or how perfect your hair is if you have to tell them you are unemployed - it's like "how come no one trusts you enough to give you money?"
Yeah, I have a friend who is older than me, and looks like his hot sister, except without breasts. He gets "ma'am-ed" from time to time. He hatest it. I hate him for it. (Well, not really, but it's pretty frustrating when he looks more feminine than I do.)
Stupid trans gods, wasting the more feminine male bodies on cis guys.