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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Topic started by: Miniar on July 18, 2009, 08:56:59 AM

Title: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Miniar on July 18, 2009, 08:56:59 AM
I feel a little rude making a second specific post for this and, well, it feels a bit like bragging, but I'm just, happy.
Now, I'm so rarely happy I usually don't know what to do with it, I just get confused, but since knowing my husband and partner in all things, I've at least experienced it often enough to know what it is now.
And right now, I'm happy.

I worked myself up into a horrible ball of nerves about seeing the psychiatrist. The what ifs that ran through my mind ranged from "what if he just doesn't believe me?" to "what if I'm not man enough?" to "what if I end up understating things, effectively destroying my chances to being taken serious, again..?" and so on and so forth.

And so I walked into his office, feeling three feet tall and somewhat nauseous, sat down, and we went over the broad strokes of what my life is like at the moment. My dating history, my job, my family, my daughter, my body, my relationship with my body, the way I see my trans-ness, what I "want" to do and how and why and where and so on.
And I was honest... for the most part. I emphasized the things I felt were important ofcourse, just like any living, sentient being would, and I downplayed things that I didn't want to associate myself with, ofcourse, like any living, sentient being, would. I was more honest than I had expected myself to be.

And I got my reward.
In signing a piece of paper, I am "officially" transitioning now.
I have to pop back to Reykjavík and talk to the other members of the committee, be interviewed some more. Meet the team of doctors, psychiatrists, therapists, gynos, and more. And undergo a complete psychiatric evaluation, including an IQ test. (Which I'm actually looking forward to!)
And then, since I seem sane enough, serious, intelligent, and well read, I was told I could more or less expect to have my "one year RLT" cut down by some months. I don't know how many, but... I've got this feeling like this year I might get the greatest Christmas/Yule/WinterSolstice/WhateverYouCelebrate present that any man could ever dream to get.

I feel like I'm finally moving.
Finally getting somewhere.

The Pshychiatrist all but told me that I could get on T sooner if I'd go around the system and get it myself, or have top surgery (And pay for it myself).. which makes me feel like I've been told that the "when" is more my choice than theirs. Which obviously feels brilliant!

I know this is a big "hooray!" post and so it can be tough to read for some of you, and I'm sorry and I understand that completely, as it's been tough for me to watch people get their transitions started, and get "somewhere" with them, but I just have to write this..
I half want to climb up ontop of a building and shout it out to the world even.
A ton of bricks off my panicky shoulders.
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: myles on July 18, 2009, 09:14:11 AM
Congratulations! Great news.
Cheers,
Myles
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: finewine on July 18, 2009, 09:16:54 AM
Brilliant news!  Congratulations, I'm sincerely happy for you! :)
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Lachlann on July 18, 2009, 09:41:37 AM
Gratz!

Good to see you're getting somewhere.
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: FairyGirl on July 18, 2009, 10:30:37 AM
aw hon that's awesome! I know how much better you feel. I hope you get that solstice present you want  ;)
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Constance on July 18, 2009, 10:43:25 AM
Fantastic news! Congratulations, Miniar!
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Teknoir on July 18, 2009, 11:17:34 AM
Quote from: Miniar on July 18, 2009, 08:56:59 AM
I know this is a big "hooray!" post and so it can be tough to read for some of you, and I'm sorry and I understand that completely, as it's been tough for me to watch people get their transitions started, and get "somewhere" with them, but I just have to write this..

I wouldn't worry too much about that. Speaking as someone who hasn't started the medical side of transition yet (damn you, lack of money!) - I feel nothing but happy for you! That's awesome news!

I'm even more happy they're willing to cut down that insane 1 year RLT requirement for you. You've been though enough pre-T RLT time already. I don't think you'd gain much in the way of insight from any more.

From one FTM to another - if there's anyone that deserves a jab in the behind with a big needle full of T, it's you :laugh:

Congrats :)


Oh yeah, I almost forgot... this is for you  ;D

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Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Nero on July 18, 2009, 11:21:24 AM
way to go dude. here's to your first shot of T!
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Lori on July 18, 2009, 11:39:32 AM
YAY!! Congratulations. Just be yourself because you rock.
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Miniar on July 18, 2009, 12:02:07 PM
Thanks guys.. ^^
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Janet_Girl on July 18, 2009, 12:27:34 PM
Awesome, Hon.  (((Bigs Hugs)))

Janet
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Arch on July 18, 2009, 12:41:47 PM
Terrific news, Miniar! It won't be long now!
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: GamerJames on July 18, 2009, 12:59:48 PM
Congrats Miniar!

And as someone who's nowhere near the medical side of transitioning yet, it doesn't make me feel bad to hear of your successes, it actually gives me hope for my own future. Don't get me wrong, I'm really jealous about how far along many of you are, but overall, seeing others make leaps like this shows me it *can* be done, and someday it'll be *me* doing it! :D
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: katherine on July 19, 2009, 09:50:28 AM
Congratulations Miniair!  I know this is such an important milestone for you.  Hugs.
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Miniar on July 19, 2009, 10:06:58 AM
Thanks again guys and girls ofcourse too.. *hugs everyone*

I'm still bouncing off the walls about it
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Ender on July 19, 2009, 01:30:34 PM
You said it best.  Hooray!  I'm glad you have the option to 'go around the system' to speed things up a bit.
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Kara on July 19, 2009, 04:54:56 PM
Well congratulations! A happy Miniar is much better than a nervous Miniar.  :laugh:
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Jamie-o on July 19, 2009, 05:02:00 PM
Isn't it great when the ball finally starts rolling?  Congratulations!
Title: Re: No longer a maybe!
Post by: Miniar on July 20, 2009, 07:34:22 AM
yep Jamie-o, it's really f-ing awesome...

I also passed today, got in an elevator and was treated to male pronouns by the other guy waiting to take it...

It's a good day today..