Greetings from the Southeastern plains of Colorado.
I turn 55 next week, and I have known that I am a "girl" since 1962. Because I was born a boy, I have had to live this way because it has not been acceptable for me to be a girl. When I was growing up, boys were expected to work the farm or ranch. Not do cooking, sewing or keeping house.
When I was in school, I wanted to go as a girl. I was not allowed. I just dressed up in private when I could. I spent some time in the military. I kept it low key, and almost got caught once. I just kept my dressing in the "closet", since then.
I have tried to have a relations, over the years. After a couple of dates, I would tell them about me and they would, "Shut the door in my face". I have not tried to date since I was 24 (about 1978). It is just not worth it. No one would understand.
In 2007 things changed a little for me. A co-worker, sent me an email. The email had a link to site that tell you things about your birth date. The site also had a link to "what your name means" page. It would also tell things about you, from your name. I entered my name in, and what was displayed, was not me. It was someone else. I entered the name if I was born a girl. To my surprise, the display was ME, or close enough to be scary. It even listed my last 3 jobs!
A couple of other things happened during 2007. I finally pierced my ears. This is something I wanted to do while in high school. But, boys did not get their ears pierced, back then. I also had emergency surgery, and had problems during recovery. Something happened that changed me. My feelings to be girl, got a lot stronger (no better word to explain it).
This last year, I told some of my co-workers about me. Two are very supportive. I have gotten some clothes and stuff, from them. Two others think I need mental health counselling. I have not told the boss, even though we have worked together for several years. I'm not sure how she would take it, or if I would have a job, afterwards.
I think alot of my being this way comes from my mother. She dressed most of the time, in mens clothes. She did not wear dresses, unless she went to church or had to. One Year, I traveled across the country, with my mother, and people would address her as "Sir". She didn't even wear a bra. The only bra she had, I was the last person to wear it.
Don't want to bore you, so will end.
Charmaine
Welcome Charmiane! I'm Nero.
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Hey Charmaine and welcome. Been to Colorado several times. Such a pretty state.
Gennee
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