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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Krissy_Australia on August 19, 2009, 10:50:06 AM

Title: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Krissy_Australia on August 19, 2009, 10:50:06 AM
Its so different. A year ago Ide never be seen out in public without a few drinks to help my confidence. Ide always thought the idea of living fulltime would be too hard facing the public as a man pretending to be  a woman. OMG how things have changed.
Im actually doing it now. I dont really care that I dont pass and I am now living as a man in a womans dress. It just feels so liberating to let society know this is who I am.

I feel that going RLE is such a great confidence booster to pre surgery. Ide hate to be coming out of FFS and trying to do the relyance of FFS to give me the confidence of going RLE.

Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Julie Marie on August 19, 2009, 10:55:15 AM
Good for you Krissy! And, as long as this is the right thing for you, it will only get better.  ;D

Julie
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Krissy_Australia on August 19, 2009, 11:04:45 AM
Thanks Julie
Its the right decision. It gets clearer every day
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Janet_Girl on August 19, 2009, 11:08:31 AM
As many will tell you, RLE and full time is wonderful. There was a time I thought that I would never get there.  But I am coming up on one year.  OMG, one year. :o  And I have learned so much about being the woman I should have been in the beginning.

Each day will be a blessing, no matter how small for you.

Welcome to the Real Life of Womanhood.

Janet
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Krissy_Australia on August 19, 2009, 11:29:18 AM
Thanks Janet

This has been such a hard road to take but Im glad Im doing it. I think Frederich Nietzche said the best path was the hardest one to follow
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Steffi on August 19, 2009, 06:14:25 PM
Quote from: Krissy_AustraliaIde always thought the idea of living fulltime would be too hard facing the public as a man pretending to be  a woman. OMG how things have changed.
Im actually doing it now. I dont really care that I dont pass and I am now living as a man in a womans dress. It just feels so liberating to let society know this is who I am.
I know exactly what you mean luv.  Isn't it amazing?
I'm 6' tall and wide shouldered with clear masculine markers in the face, so from the start I've had to just accept that Everyone will know..... always and forever it will be apparent that *quote* I am now living as a man in a womans dress.
I always desperately wanted to change role, but thought that for me, it is not possible and never could be. 

Well, I'm just over two years in now and very settled in role - I am just me, Stephanie  8) .....but it STILL suddenly strikes me sometimes...... that feeling of amazement and disbelief that I AM actually doing this! - and with relatively little trouble, certainly far less than I had imagined for the 50+ years that I didn't have the bottle to do it.

Yes, I do have some little problems from time to time. Yes, sometimes people say cruel things to me ......... but none of it really matters. 
Nothing takes away from the sheer joy of at last just Being Me.

Ain't it grand?     :) 8) :icon_dance:
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: gween on August 19, 2009, 07:23:32 PM
i so happy for you ,and i know what you mean i started to live full time about 6 months ago it fills great
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Shana on August 19, 2009, 11:24:45 PM
Congratulations Krissy and Mattie!!

It only gets easier and better.
I began full time in 1999, and even after surgery last year, it still amazes me.

Enjoy the journey.  ;D

Shana
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Meshi on August 20, 2009, 12:05:47 AM
Congrats!  I know it can be difficult in the beginning, but i found early on that its  best to take things in little steps and then you will progress naturally and be more comfortable with yourself later.
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Cindy on August 20, 2009, 04:53:13 AM
Well done Honey,

:-* :-* :-* :-*

from Adelaide

Cindy
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: debisl on August 20, 2009, 09:44:09 AM
Keep your chin up. You seam to be doing wonderful. The attitude is the number one factor in RLE. If you think it is so. It is so!!! Be as confident about yourself as you possible can. Things will fall into place for you. Believe in yourself and others will follow.

Deb
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Sandy on August 20, 2009, 12:59:20 PM
Quote from: Krissy_Australia on August 19, 2009, 11:29:18 AM
Thanks Janet

This has been such a hard road to take but Im glad Im doing it. I think Frederich Nietzche said the best path was the hardest one to follow
Congratulations, Krissy!

But, I'll bet that now that you are on the path, it isn't quite as hard as you thought, is it?

And every day becomes easier!

-Sandy
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: MaggieB on August 20, 2009, 01:05:34 PM
Congratulations, Krissy!
When I went full time it was totally exhilarating.  I smiled and smiled in public. It is still wonderful.

Best of luck with the rest of your transition.  Heady days ahead!

Maggie
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Cloe_Ho on August 20, 2009, 02:27:28 PM
Congrads love... I only hope that I have the same courage when the time comes
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Marie on August 20, 2009, 02:41:40 PM
I slipped into fulltime so slow (over a year) I didn't even notice the change.  Though I will say I couldn't imagine starting over again.
Title: Re: RLE I cant believe Im actualy living fulltime.
Post by: Steph2003 on August 20, 2009, 02:49:29 PM
Congrats Krissy!

I've only recently began seeing a gender therapist, but I feel wonderful just knowing that I'm not alone and that there is another life out there for me!

I know that my new life awaits me and I'm glad I finally started in that direction!