So, maybe I'm just foolhardy but what can i say?
So I got this VERY part time job doing a little deal one day a month. It's one of those little out of the way things - i never see the people I work for and I just go to 4 different stores and check their invoices for something and report what I find.
Anyway, I do this thing in a small city 50 miles from where I live and it occurred to me that I go dress when I go and maybe it wouldn't matter. I started out just thinking maybe some makeup or whatever and got carried away with myself. So I ran the day today in a skirt and some flat sandals and full makeup and so forth - even red nail polish lol.
Anyway, I shopped Wal Mart, i got luch at McDonalds, I visited the Salvation Army and stopped at a sidewalk sale. I walked through the mall and I went to the places my work carried me too, and didn't get any overt bad reactions.
I KNOW i don't remotely pass...I mean I'm probably (when dressed) a muddled enough picture that some folks will not be certain but I'm sure everyone has a lot of doubts...but the only low point in the day was at the last store I worked when I gave the papers back to the clerk and asked a question she replied "yes sir" but there wasn't any apparent malice.
I'm kind of thinking the store manager probably had said something like "when that guy brings the sheets back..." or something because whatever fain illusion I might have been carrying was blown when I forgot my voice in my last exchange with him.
Which sucked. But on the whole it was a pretty good day. The thing that really got under my skin though was that I had to be creative about restrooms because I just couldn't work up the courage to risk a scene by going to the "little girl's room"
I'll probably need to dial it back some next month though just to kind of balance things out.
Dunno why I'm posting this except just as kind of a bit of blogging or something...I guess my only point is that I'm probably not very smart - for all I know that store manager will call my boss tomorrow and tell her he don't want no freaks or perverts coming in his place.
Hey, girl, congratulations! I know that took a lot of guts. Keep trying out situations as you are comfortable and see how you feel. Pretty soon, I bet you'll look back on this and wonder why you thought it was such a big deal.
other than being worried I'll piss of the people I have to see to do the job and get in trouble - and trying to figure out where to pee - the most refreshing thing was that it WASN'T a big deal.
Just a girl out for a day shopping and stuff.
I just look forward to the day when I don't have to put so much effort into just getting close to reasonable looking (i.e. fat and beard mostly)
I think I'm about ready to add "lap band" to my list of surgeries to wish for....