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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Topic started by: deniz on November 01, 2009, 03:28:12 PM

Title: so sad
Post by: deniz on November 01, 2009, 03:28:12 PM
here i am again.it has been a while.i was so happy the last year i didn;t feel the need to cry in someones shoulder.i was in a relationship.a perfect one.but again he did not know my status.(pre-op). don;t ask me why.but he broke with me.not relavant reason with me being ts(he did not know as i told you).also i had a very good job.the knew my status since in greece i can not change my name pre op and had no problem. BUT my job is over.it finished and it was not renewed :(
so, no job no boyfriend .and the question keeps coming back
why can i not decide to have srs to start my life :(
why i hesitate
why i make relationships with men they do not know and live the dream for a while?
Title: Re: so sad
Post by: K8 on November 01, 2009, 06:47:41 PM
Deniz, SRS is a big step.  It is normal to hesitate, to question, to doubt.  In the US you must live in your target gender for a year before you can have SRS.  I don't know how it works in Greece.  Do you live as a woman?  Are you on hormones?  In my little world where I live, I needed to be doing both of those things before I could schedule SRS.

We all go through periods of self-doubt.  Being jobless and without a relationship will make you doubt yourself even more.  That's natural.  But things can get better.

Quote from: deniz on November 01, 2009, 03:28:12 PM
why can i not decide to have srs to start my life :(

Start your life anyway.  SRS will not solve all your problems and will not magically make everything wonderful.  Don't wait for SRS.  Start to live now.

- Kate
Title: Re: so sad
Post by: deniz on November 01, 2009, 07:05:03 PM
but i live as a woman.i can not pass as a boy anymore.but i can not change my name:( i am woman with a man;s name.so finding a job will be really hard.as for boyfriend i am attractive but i make shorts relationships before i am discovered or before they ask for sex.in greece you can make a boy wait 6 months easily.so. i make short term relationships.the sad thing is i fall in love.and the break up becomes difficult
Title: Re: so sad
Post by: Bellaon7 on November 01, 2009, 08:22:49 PM
Deniz, if you don't feel sure about srs then you're not ready for it. You will however find support from us here no matter where you're head & heart reside.