Hello. I was browsing the internet looking for as much information as i could for M2F surgeries and transitions, and when i came across this forum and saw the posts here, i felt like it would be a place i could comfortably talk about the confusion i am having and hopefully get some advice...
So I suppose i will begin telling my story...i will try to keep it as G-rated as possible, but forgive me for any awkwardness as i am very new to all this.
I am a 19 year old male. Rena is just a screen name :). I have been bisexual (to a degree) for a long time. I had tried hiding it away, but as evidence shows that didn't work very long. My concern does not involve which i prefer, i feel that love is what's important for that; nothing else. The problem I am having is that it seems to me that most people who get the m2f op seem to all have been repulsed by their bodies. While I am not totally repulsed by my...boy parts..., i am not happy with in my body and always find myself imagining my body as female, being jealous of girls bodies, and things like that. TBH, im terrified. i mean, this is a really big deal. its something that, if i go through with it, i can never turn back. but im very sure that i will be happier! im always happier when i imagine myself as a woman. My other concern is that i will not be accepted where i live now. avoiding specifics, i live in a small conservative town in texas in an area of texas not well known for tolerance. Here i have a job doing what makes me happy, and working with prestigious clients. Im terrified at the thought of all of my success falling apart so soon.
Im very confused and could use any advice or viewpoints i can get! Its been at the back of my mind for years and its starting to keep me up at night... hence the post at 2 in the morning ^.^;
Thanks in advance,
Rena
From one Rena to another, welcome to susan's
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Hope you enjoy your stay
Hi Rena
We are all different, among the girls, some hate their bits and pieces, others dont and a whole range in between. Same for the boys, some want total surgery and some don't - and the whole range in between - again.
Be comfortable with you. After all, YOU is all that matters. This is a support site and guess what, we are a diversified as any of group of people. BUT, we know what it means to be TG at any level.
So be happy, 'cos now you are a knew member of the family, paticularly useful for people who live in places that cannot accept normality. BTW I'm in South Australia so I know Texas really well, didn't John Wayne capture it at the Alamo? :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
If I remember his real name was Marion :angel: so nothing new in Texas Hun.
Sorry for the bad jokes
Cindy
thanks! ive already been made to feel so welcome here between forums and chat, and it hasnt even been 3 hours yet! thank you!
Hi Rena, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 3600 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
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But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
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Blessed Be.
Janet
Welcome to Susan's Rena :)
hi hun have you talked to a therapist yet that is the inevitable first step to sorting out the issues remember that orientation and genders are to different things hugs there are lots of people here willing to lend an ear and a hug
jessica
Actually i just set up an appointment today. i just hafta wait a couple weeks. its a win/win situation. cant lose in therapy! ^_^
congrads on finding a therapist. Good luck!! ;D
Welcome Rena. You can feel free to speak your mind here.
Sarah