So lately, the whole GID has been piling up so hard on me, and I really needed to have an outlet to someone, as I think I would have gone insane otherwise.
Being at University kinda sucks though, as I had to use MSN, though it was handy for linkage etc.
Basically I kinda let her know I wanted to speak to her earlier this week, and caught her today. I mumbled through a basic explanation of how I felt, (very hard to do, especially pressing the Enter key!) and showed her a picture of me as my female self.
She was far too agreeable :P Haha. To be fair, she didn't have any idea, but afterwards she didn't make any inclinations of bad feeling or anything. It's an annoying situation to be in, as whilst I can see her 90% being sincere (we're close-close, tell each other everything) and fine with it and wanting to help me through it, (what she said), there's a small 10% of me that thinks she just was overly nice because that's the kinda person she is, and really she's a bit put off by it.
What makes things worse is I know she had the hots for me at one point. >_<
I've not started HRT yet, but I'm in the process of taking some herbs to stop hair loss and block some T while I'm searching for a therapist...
After having the conversation, one part of me is insanely inspired that no, I won't lose everything, and there's nothing holding me back, but then again there's that feeling of 'ugh'.
I doubt I'll come out to family until I start HRT and there has been some effect though. Is it always this confusing coming out to people?
Post Merge: November 29, 2009, 08:44:59 PM
Also, how do I edit my profile to change my sig and avatar? It just brings up a group option...
15 posts, Hon. You need 15 posts. Don't push it, just reply and post and you will get there.
Okay, sure. Don't worry I won't spam things up :P I've ran forums before and know what its like...