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Title: I'm obsessed of myself
Post by: Megan on February 03, 2010, 11:02:02 PM
What is wrong with me? I was just thinking I am completely obsessed with myself, it's like I view myself as a God/Goddess. It's like I think I am the most perfect being on the face of the planet, and I am so perfect that I do not reveal this side of me.

I am not perfect, but my mind tells me I am. I see all my imperfections, but I blind myself of them when I look at myself. It's like I know I am obese, have a few scars,  have an ugly nose, not blonde, but then again it's like "That is all fixable, and then I am perfect".

I love myself, so much that I don't want to ruin myself with transitioning. If I could date my personality I would (not my looks because that be weird), but I love my mind and soul. I just love myself beyond normal. Everything about me, not just my looks, but what I think and say.

And it's not random, it's a constant feeling. I need to look in the mirror ever 2 hrs or so just to see how hot I am, and even if I am not that "hot". It's like vanity and narcissism is me, and all I want is money and power.

This guy was referencing me as fat, and I was like "whatever" about it. It didn't even phase me, since I do not care. I do not think I could survive without money and power. I look at hot guys/hot women, and I am like "I rather be me than them anyday." 

Anyone even close to this? Or am I just really narcissistic?
Title: Re: I'm obsessed of myself
Post by: Muffin on February 03, 2010, 11:18:06 PM
lol!!! I say run with it, I'm mostly jealous!!! Just don't let it ruin you!!!

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Title: Re: I'm obsessed of myself
Post by: Syne on February 04, 2010, 07:16:16 PM
We all have our obsessions my dear. Some of us just cannot speak of them in polite company.
Title: Re: I'm obsessed of myself
Post by: Chamillion on February 04, 2010, 09:23:45 PM
I think many people have at least one thing they love about themselves to the point of seeming conceited.  For you, it's your mind.  I don't think there's anything wrong with that; I feel the same way sometimes.  I've looked around a room before and thought to myself, wow I'm so glad that I'm me and not any of these people.  I love how I feel about certain things and the opinions I hold.  Imo though, everyone should feel this way.  I've known people who say, "if I met someone like me, I would hate them".  I don't get how.  If you don't like your own personality, why wouldn't you just change?

I don't know if it's "normal" but I definitely don't think it's bad.  Being happy with yourself is a really good feeling and allows you to be the best you can be imo.. Just don't let it affect how you treat others
Title: Re: I'm obsessed of myself
Post by: Megan on February 05, 2010, 04:27:10 PM
And that's where I suck at, because I let people get their own illusion about me. I adapt my personality, so they would love me to fit the person.

So I am never mean to them, but people in general are just boring. Small chat especially, I even dreamt of hating small chat.