Who knows Why?
http://womenborntranssexual.com/2010/02/20/who-knows-why/ (http://womenborntranssexual.com/2010/02/20/who-knows-why/)
2/20/10
I think an awful lot of late transitioners end up looking for a REASON. They want to know WHY? WHY? They were adult males who gave in to this need, this overwhelming drive – it often becomes "change or die".
I think it takes time to reach a point where "why" no longer matters. A point where it just IS. A point where I'm actually happy to just be happy, to just be me.
I often wonder the same. Why me? Why now? Why not before? Why is it such a dire need?
Will likely never know. Even wonder if this is really the path for me. I feel it is, but others don't see it like I do. And maybe they're right, maybe they have a special, clear "outsider" insight not clouded by my crazy mood shifts and depression and angst. Time will tell if this is the correct path.