Well, I'm going to do my best to sum things up without going on for too long ^^; I'm 22, 23 May 26th, I've known I was TG since well... a little kid. I had a really tough childhood, my brother died of a drug O.D. when I was 4 (he was 15,) my family is extremely conservative baptist, and pretty much even since the age of about 5, I convinced myself I couldn't tell them how I felt...
When I was 16, I fell in love with a TG girl I met online, I moved to her in Atlanta after visiting twice when I was 19. During the entire period, 16-20, I helped her transition. She was two years older than me- Sadly, right before I was to move there, I was in a car accident, which proved to be very debilitating over time- After 6 months, I could no longer work the job I had there to support myself living away from home, and my insurance required me to move back to my well, abusive family in Minnesota for medical treatment. We did end up breaking up at that point...
Anyways, I suppressed my personal feelings about myself for years, due to my family and well my height. I'm 6'6" when it comes down to it, which will be a burden, but I passed the point of no return back in December, I just cracked, and I'm pushing myself forward. Despite a lot of personal anguish, especially with my mother, whom I did make the decision to come out to... I'm happier then ever in my life.
As it is, I have no friends here- In real life, as the only two I had that would have been understanding, moved out of state about a year ago, and for other reasons (mainly my family) that keep me limited from socializing in a large number of situations. I do have a partner, in an alternate D/s relationship, I visited her for two weeks in March in Oklahoma, and she's extremely of supportive of me, probably the one good supportive person I have close to me in my life at the moment.
I came out to my mom back in January, and no- It didn't go well, but I didn't expect it to, since then we've had further and further talks, and I've done my best to help her understand. Unfortunately tonight, I was feeling really vulnerable, and I kind of went out to the livingroom and sat close to her on the couch, though I sat on the floor and tried to talk, and ended up just crying. She completely ignored everything, not even a sound or motion of acknowledgement... So I guess, not the best of nights, luckily appointment with my Psychiatrist tomorrow... So I'll be able to talk about it with someone.
Anyways, I wanted to introduce myself, I've personally helped see 4 friends through transition, and am here to give my utmost support to the community... I'm just finding myself in a spot needing support myself, just because of everything... Even though I feel bad bringing it up/asking for help (self esteem issues.) But I just wanted to introduce myself and offer any love and support I can to the community! ^.^
Edit: I have been diagnosed after my first visit actually to my Psychiatrist, and the first tests as having GID, and will be starting hormones in May hehe. Though, I did self administer for 6 months in the past, they made me quit completely before any follow up visits at the clinic. Take care everyone! ^^;
Welcome to the forums, I think you will find many similar stories to your own here. Interesting name BTW, are you intending it to mean rabbit ears or is there a kanji meaning behind the name?
I feel for you being 6'6" and all but, I've seen tall girls pass too, and your happiness is worth far more than the perceptions of others, and when your happy other people seem to be less questioning of you anyway. Whatever support you need I hope you find it here :) and again welcome.
Hehe, just bunny ears. Just something general I've been using lately- My partner introduced me to all her friends and such in real life just as "Bunny" and it's all she really calls me by, so it just stems from that. No special meaning behind it!
As of height, I know hehe, but it's one of those things that's still a super hard thing to get by... But as it is, I'm still far happier this way, and I know this is only a taste of the fulfillment I'll see down the road.
Thank you very much and I'm happy to meet you! ;D
Welcome to Susan's, Usagi-Mimi. :icon_flower:
There's a lot of good information and good people here. Each of our stories is unique but we have a lot in common. Settle in, pull up a keyboard, and explore.
Be sure to look under the Announcements heading. There you will find the rules we live by in this little world of ours:
- Site Terms of Service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
- Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
- Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
Look through the other stuff there, too.
You are in a tough situation. I'm glad you are seeing a psychiatrist. I hope he/she can help you. And here at Susan's we recommend against self-administering hormones. They can really mess you up, so it's good that you'll be getting them with proper monitoring.
There's lots of support here. We're always glad to welcome another supportive person and to offer you support, too.
Good luck to you, Bunny. :icon_wave:
- Kate
Hi Usagi-Mimi, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 4500 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. :icon_hug:
As Kate said check out the lawyer stuff ( Rules To Live By ).
We are a fun bunch here. So jump right in.
Hugs And Love,
Janet
bunny ears?
Ok I am linguistically challenged.
Welcome to Susan's. I think you will find that you are not alone and there is much to read here.
well welcome rabbit ears lol
i know all about non-accepting families , and i know how hard it could be . but i'm glad your making steps forward despite everything , it means you have a strong heart
and your way ahead of me though , but i found out that helping others makes me feel better when nothing can . and it's nice her , you can help others and others help you , so i like it
good luck :)
Welcome to Susans place, you will find lots of support here, they are the besy group of people I have ever spoken to about GID. They have helped me emensley, with the GID and not my spelling as you can see.
It sounds to me like you know exactly whats going on and are very prepared for what is around the corner.
Congratulations and you start and I hope that it all goes well, feel free to contact me any time for a chat, I dont mind reading your rants, infact I look forward to it and hope you look afteryourself.
C U soon
luv LUCY
Quote from: LordKAT on April 13, 2010, 10:28:34 AM
bunny ears?
Ok I am linguistically challenged.
LOL, Usagi = bunny Mimi = ear
Well there are alot of japophiles here. At least it wasn't written 兎耳 as a user name or worse done it in the traditional Japanese way of using the kanji for their phonetic values and using the meaning behind the letters rather than the sound. for example Ichigo from Bleach = 一護 or first protector. whereas, Ichigo 苺 actually means strawberry, which is all very confusing since the phonetic values to kanji can be read differently, therefore many words can be made up of characters having nothing to do with the word itself.
Now I know I officially watch too much anime :) but, that is fine since it is a cute user name :)
*giggles at Hikari* Well said, I think we might just be kindreds on the anime side of things hehe.
And thank you all so much for the warm welcome and the tips! Really, it means a ton to me! I'm really well versed in TG/TS, I've helped about 4 friends emotionally at the least through all of if not most of their transition, but now I'm finding myself on the other side of the fence hehe. But I already love it here, and I'll be around quite a bit... And if anyone ever has a tough day, just message me, let me know, whatever! I always have an ear to listen!
Thank you all so much! <3
(late reply)
welcome to murderapolis btw, hope you're not going to PHS :P
Welcome to Susans :)
Heh, was born and raised here in MN, and thanks for the welcome! And I have to ask, PHS? ^^; Actually going to the Center of Sexual Health, but I look forward to chatting more! ^^
Hi
*waves*
Nice to meet you hun, and I hope you find the support you need here.
Quote from: Usagi-Mimi on April 13, 2010, 04:44:08 PM
Heh, was born and raised here in MN, and thanks for the welcome! And I have to ask, PHS? ^^; Actually going to the Center of Sexual Health, but I look forward to chatting more! ^^
University of Minnesota, Program in Human Sexuality
it's on 2nd street off washington and 35W in the same building as WPATH
edit: looks like the same thing, give Cesar Gonzalez a hi for me :P
I'm not fond of his by the book scripting which lead me to my current therapist http://www.willowcounselingservices.com/Veronica.html (http://www.willowcounselingservices.com/Veronica.html)
edit 2: they didn't require me to stop self medicating, looks like they changed the script since I was there
Ahh okays, they call themselves the "Center for Sexual Health" now, which is why it didn't ring a bell... Well, I'm there now, no really getting past it... My therapist is... decent, not great, not terrible, so we'll see. But yeah, forced me to stop hormones, though it looks by mid may as if I'll have gotten my letter so that's good.
that's weird, phs is still alive and kicking, must be a different service
http://www.fm.umn.edu/phs/ (http://www.fm.umn.edu/phs/)
edit: looks like center for sexual health is the building name
Ah okies, it just was on all the paperwork, and whenever you call they answer "Center for Sexual Health" - It's also all over the walls now and such, so I guess it's just the familiarity of it... Hrmn, well maybe after I get hormones... I'll have to try the therapist you suggest. Honestly, I have a LOT of abuse (family/friends) in my past, and thats the one thing I can say my psychologist isn't very good at dealing with.
Then again, he said I was a rarity, I introduced myself on our first day to him as TS/TG, which... I've known I am for years, so whatever. I can tell though, he's fairly new.
Yeah, MN is a confused state. And Murderapolis isn't that bad.......
Welcome to Minnesota!
Hehe, like I said... Born and raised here (I just lived in atlanta for 9 months a few years ago, only other place I've lived), actually in Anoka County, but yeah o.o Thank you! ^^ As for murderapolis, I know it's baaad, but it's not that baaaad.
But it's still baaaaad, but in it's own Mpls way LOL
True hehe, though I can't say I've ever spent much time down town! I live juuuust far enough north, driving downtown to my appointments in itself is a pain, it's about a 35-60 minute drive one way (depending on 35-W)
I'm in the St Cloud area....I refuse to go to Mpls or St Paul. But missing all the negatives of the cities leaves me stuck with a city that only has two roads that actually go somewhere.
Hey! Spent a winter in Augusta back in the late 80's.