As Franklin D. Roosevelt once said: "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself"
For me, since I accepted my GID; there has been a "battle" between my wish to transition and the fear of bad things that could happen.
Yesterday, at last, my wish of transitioning won the battle. I was in the train, and in front of me there was a couple.
I don' t know what was special about them, maybe the very obvious happiness and love, but in that moment; I said to myself:
I want to be like this girl, no matter the cost or the obstacles I find in my way, one day I will look in the mirror, and my reflex will show the same happiness I'm watching right now.
Fear can be devastating. But it is reasonable to weigh all of ones options before going down such a difficult and costly road as transition.
That said I hope you reach all of your dreams.
I wish you luck.
I just hope you don't regret it (although I doubt that you would.) Just depends on what is more important to you, and your happiness should be important to you.
I have devoted, of course, a lot of thinking to this matter. It' s a life changing decision that must not be done lightly.
I also do "experiments", like using woman clothes, make up, a more femenine body language or training my voice, and when I'm doing those things I feel better, more like "me".
With each day, I find more little things that make me be more sure about this.
As a result, I will give a step by coming out to my best friend (Who I'm sure will understand). Having someone to talk about my feelings will be very helpful.
i hope it goes as planned hun
jessica
I've certainly felt a lot happier since I stopped being afraid of who I am. It's quite a good feeling to realise how far I've come in a comparatively short time.