THE GENDER TRUST BLOG: Internal Transphobia
gendertrust @ 4:49 pm
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I've had something on my mind since moving to London, and it's time to come clean.
In the summer of 2006 I threw away the last of my boy's clothes and, a fortnight later, decided to sample the 'transgender scene' in London. Living in Nottingham at the time, I imagined the Way Out Club (which I'd discovered on the internet) to be a huge and glitzy affair – the transgender equivalent of legendary gay superclub Heaven. It would be filled with amazingly beautiful and sophisticated transsexual people, who'd make me feel like a mere provincial wannabe.
Not quite. I hadn't considered that it would attract those who struggle most with their gender identity. The Way Out seemed somewhat bitchy, and many of the girls seemed desperate for sex. Tales of their depression and nocturnal lifestyles surprised me, but I was soon to learn the reasons behind some of their problems.
Oh what a sad, sad story. :(
Regret always comes with hindsight. If only we could see the consequences of our choices before they are unalterable.
It is a sad story. I feel strongly for her. Hope she can find some peace.