I wrote my momma a little note (five pages :/) mooonths ago explaining to her the best I could the way I feel about life... Well I finally worked up the courage to give it to her last week. Well.. I left it on her desk and when she got home I got really sick to my stomach and took off for a few hours. When I got home she told me it made her cry at first but she was really glad I gave it to her.
I'm going to stop dragging on mystory and get to my point.
I did e-councelling a while ago for my own peace of mind. Now that my mum knows and is accepting I'm ready to take the next step and speak with a therapist face to face. My mums work provides a pssycologist/therapist/suicide service where I could call and make an appointment to speak with someone face to face and have it all payed for. I guess my question is would calling or going to see my family doctor for a referal be the best option?
I'm sure either would work out appropriatly, I just have really bad anxiety and am afraid of....... Well I don't know what I'm afraid of, I just know I'm toooo toooo nervous and need some input!
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First off let me say this is just a opinion so don't take it as professional advice. I would call only beacause it is already payed for. Although it also depends, does your family doctor seem a doctor that would be excepting of your transition? If you think your docotor would be excepting and you are confortable speaking to them about your transition then you might want to consider talking to them.
Hope someone can give you the information you are looking for.
But great that your mom has taken it intelegently.
Kira, I am so happy for you that you've taken that important first step! I remember taking that step (it was a long time ago). I had moved to the East Coast, and I wrote a letter to an ex-girlfriend who was safely 3,000 miles away in California, telling her about me. Just writing the letter was horrible -- I paced up and down in my room for 15 minutes before typing (that's how long ago it was ... typewriter) each new sentence.
She was very accepting. (I sort of guessed she would be. She was living in Berkeley.) And it has gotten easier and easier as time goes by.
If you can get low-cost therapy through your mother's health plan, then by all means, do it! It may happen that the therapist you're referred to may not know much about gender issues. If you start to feel that the therapist is trying to steer you toward being "normal" (whatever that is!) rather than discovering and cherishing your deepest feelings, then it's okay to say, "This isn't working. I need to see a different therapist."
Please come back soon and tell us how it goes!
Hugs!
*** Jenna ***