A lot of people say they don't get emotionally involved in the theory to their srs date. However, in my case, I beg to differ.
I was crying last weekend at the fact that the reality is more present to me with each passing day then it ever was.
I walk by my half way packed suitcase each morning, look at my plane tickets sitting on my desk inside my red folder.
I realized I am closed to my 6 week Pre-OP bloodwork submission, then it will be my 3 week Hormone Halt, then surgery itself.
I get really emotional like a cry of happiness. Maybe im being a big cry baby, but I cry really easily.
Tik Tok on the clock! 2 months 15 days
Enjoy the anticipation. These are indeed moments to savor and to record.
The night before your SRS, don't be surprised if you become a little nervous, ("Is this the right thing?") That, too, seems to be a very normal part of the process that passes very quickly.
Have a big smile ready for the anesthesiologist when he asks, "Can you shift over to the guerney?"
And enjoy the ride to the OR.
Robyn
Like it was yesterday
I think where you and I differ the most is you are a much better packer and organizer. My suitcase was in the closet until the night before. I did have my plane tickets at that time, but I hadn't printed them out yet.
Besides that, it was emotional for me too. The closer it got, the bigger the wave of emotion would roll over me.
Yes, it is really going to happen Sara.
I'm not really emotionally wrapped about my date at all even though I'm just a week after you, Sara. I do, however, get a little smile on my face as I get my things together and prepare for my trip. I got my two cases of lube, baby wipes, a new netbook, still trying to find hibiclens. Perhaps, as the time draws nearer, my feelings may change. Really, I just want to get it over with so I can get on with my life. I need a new job (lotsa fun there ::) ), I want to put together a little recording studio so I can get my stuff up on Youtube and, if everything works out, maybe I'll be fortunate enough to release a bit of tension with a good lookin' dude ;) I don't know, perhaps it's an age thing or maybe it's just me.
Hi SaraR
You are allowed to cry, because as you said "like a cry of happiness" you realize that what you are going to do will bring you immense joy for the rest of your life.
Leading up to my to my surgery date. I was to busy working on multi million dollar railway bridges and viaducts to be worried about my surgery. However the only worry I had was ensuring that I had the bank cheques to pay for my surgery, hospital and the anesthesiologist.
When I arrived at the hospital with my friend, I was sitting in the passenger side my car (driven from one suburb to another suburb, which took about 20 minutes) and I was thinking about what I was going to do, the consequences and even a slight hesitation on my part. This did not even take a couple of minutes. This was the first time and last time that I ever questioned myself about what I was going to do.
I walked in to the hospital with my friend, got settled, my friend left and the next day, I was being operated on. If I was going to do it again I would enjoy the anticipation of the up and coming surgery, shed a tear or two and I would skip into the hospital with a smile on my face.
I have said it before and I will say it again, I have never ever regretted what I have done and I will always be grateful to my surgeon.
Kind regards
Sarah B
Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 12:07:48 AM
I'm not really emotionally wrapped about my date at all even though I'm just a week after you, Sara. I do, however, get a little smile on my face as I get my things together and prepare for my trip. I got my two cases of lube, baby wipes, a new netbook, still trying to find hibiclens. Perhaps, as the time draws nearer, my feelings may change. Really, I just want to get it over with so I can get on with my life. I need a new job (lotsa fun there ::) ), I want to put together a little recording studio so I can get my stuff up on Youtube and, if everything works out, maybe I'll be fortunate enough to release a bit of tension with a good lookin' dude ;) I don't know, perhaps it's an age thing or maybe it's just me.
Thank you all for feeling kinda how I feel in theory. For me at the same time, I am chased by really hot guys but I am afraid to even engage because I don't want to tell them I have a skin tag. Therefore, I cannot wait til I get my surgery so I can remotely like a normal life in that sense. You have no idea how many cute guys I got to kiss and I wish I could of had them as my boyfriend knowing full well they wanted me and I wanted them but had to forcefully reject them.
Believe it or not, also my biggest joy and happiness is walking amongst history in the recovery house to say hey, ive been there! Oddly enough it doesn't even compare to stepping into a new country or what not! I really want to visit that area because of my knowledge of knowing that the care is extraordinary.
I never heard someone come back from Montreal and say omg the nurses were terrible etc.. It's always been OMG the best time of my life!
I might get the major "Butterfly to Stomach" effect when I stumble inside the residence! However, at the same time, my time is up, the time is now, I want to be free to be able to wear clothes and not worry about slippage. It's not the fact that I spontaneously erect anymore, its that my general area is so dead that it is beyond mushy and slips for being mushy. How's that for size? I want to especially attend the beaches in a bikini or close to type wear and not worry!
Kristyn, the hibiclens stuf you can get at Shoppers Drug Mart, but you really have to ask your pharmacist for it, I ended up getting this.. because its the only closes CHG there was. Its not over the counter, but you also don't need a rx for it, the pharmacist hold it in their little room.
Its not Dixedin 4 nor Hibiclens but its another brand, remember.
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Hi SaraR
I follow your story on youtube. seems like everyone is here also. best of wishes to you on trip and thanks for the help.
I found the months leading up to surgery a real emotional roller coaster. My feelings were all over the place – calm and excited and anxious and organized and happy and worried (that it wouldn't happen) and so on. I didn't pack early because I was afraid I'd be sitting on my front steps with my suitcases for the two weeks before surgery. I tried to pace myself, but it was hard work.
I never had doubts that it was the right thing, but doubts would be normal for any life-altering decision – which is what GRS is. My biggest concern, and perhaps my only concern, was that something would happen to prevent the surgery. I was really paranoid about it.
Enjoy the anticipation, Sara. And the hot guys will still be there when you have the right stuff to please them with.
- Kate
PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart. I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription. I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.
Quote from: K8 on June 23, 2010, 08:10:46 AM
I found the months leading up to surgery a real emotional roller coaster. My feelings were all over the place – calm and excited and anxious and organized and happy and worried (that it wouldn't happen) and so on. I didn't pack early because I was afraid I'd be sitting on my front steps with my suitcases for the two weeks before surgery. I tried to pace myself, but it was hard work.
I never had doubts that it was the right thing, but doubts would be normal for any life-altering decision – which is what GRS is. My biggest concern, and perhaps my only concern, was that something would happen to prevent the surgery. I was really paranoid about it.
Enjoy the anticipation, Sara. And the hot guys will still be there when you have the right stuff to please them with.
- Kate
PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart. I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription. I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.
It probably contains enough to drug you out. Thus the reason behind the counter. It's weird because K-mart doesn't exist in Ontario anymore. The old K-Mart as been taken over by zellers. I've yet to see a K-mart in any of the citys I have went too.
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Quote from: laineyjain on June 23, 2010, 08:01:13 AM
Hi SaraR
I follow your story on youtube. seems like everyone is here also. best of wishes to you on trip and thanks for the help.
Thanks for following my Story!
SaraR
Possibly. But I'm pretty certain a lot do.
Nice to hear that, along with everything else, you are a sensitive, emotional human with real feelings.
More like you girl.
Quote from: K8 on June 23, 2010, 08:10:46 AM
PS: I got Hibiclens at K-Mart. I had to ask the pharmacist, but it isn't prescription. I don't know why they keep it behind the counter.
Got mine on Amazon took 2 days to receive
Quote from: Jessica.C on June 23, 2010, 01:34:50 PM
Got mine on Amazon took 2 days to receive
I just ordered a 32oz bottle from someplace in New York. Apparently they don't sell hibiclens in Canada anymore.
Hey, we had an earthquake here 5.5 mag which was felt as far as Ohio and Vermont. Did you feel anything? I was standing in my washroom when I heard a low rumble which I thought was something being rolled down the hallway as they are working on the apartment across the hall. Then the shaking started and the walls creaked!!! It lasted about 15 seconds! I'm still shaking and that was over an hour almost two hours ago!
Sara, did you feel it?
Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 02:10:12 PM
I just ordered a 32oz bottle from someplace in New York. Apparently they don't sell hibiclens in Canada anymore.
Hey, we had an earthquake here 5.5 mag which was felt as far as Ohio and Vermont. Did you feel anything? I was standing in my washroom when I heard a low rumble which I thought was something being rolled down the hallway as they are working on the apartment across the hall. Then the shaking started and the walls creaked!!! It lasted about 15 seconds! I'm still shaking and that was over an hour almost two hours ago!
Sara, did you feel it?
Holy ->-bleeped-<- i Knew it!! :icon_yikes: felt it in Cleveland!!
Quote from: Jessica.C on June 23, 2010, 02:29:05 PM
Holy ->-bleeped-<- i Knew it!! :icon_yikes: felt it in Cleveland!!
YIKES!!! Was it strong?
Quote from: Kristyn on June 23, 2010, 02:33:02 PM
YIKES!!! Was it strong?
yeah we felt it in Timmins as well, the we were evacuated from our office.
its not good, BC's volcano might erupt after so many years, or another tsunami along the california lines, I know it started in Cali 7 days ago. and its not cool that so far Canada had the strongest wave of it... apparently it was only 19KM deep which is not that far.
And hopefully another volcano doesnt emerge there, im guessing the montreal clinic probably felt it strong too
Quote from: SaraR on June 23, 2010, 06:47:31 AM
You have no idea how many cute guys I got to kiss and I wish I could of had them as my boyfriend knowing full well they wanted me and I wanted them but had to forcefully reject them.
Yes Iv a good idea, but that will all change when you have your surgery, cute guys fully excepting you as a woman, a nice feeling.
I really only got very nervous about 2weeks before my surgery, my Mother did most of the organising, kept telling me I was doing the right thing, I got butterflies in my stomach the night before, the next morning my surgery was put back till 2PM in the afternoon, just before I went under the anesthetic my Mother and Father and 2brothers where at my bedside, my Mother just squeeze my hand whisper to me ''its all for the best'' my Dad just hug me, see you in a while princess.
Iv never regreted it, its a very very emotional time, now 2months time Im getting married, another very emotional day for me, a very big deal for any woman getting married, I get to be a princess all over again.
p
Soon you'll be crying because it hurts like hell and you have twp more hours until your next pain meds and the nurses won't give you more. I found the first night post op was the worst so far and things have gotten better every day since. Night is a more painfull time than day. The worst thing is missing friends and family though. Of course it hurts, its major surgery, but I don't regret it for a second... I do look forward to not gurting anymore though! Lol!
Quote from: Wendy1974 on June 24, 2010, 06:38:12 AM
Soon you'll be crying because it hurts like hell and you have twp more hours until your next pain meds and the nurses won't give you more. I found the first night post op was the worst so far and things have gotten better every day since. Night is a more painfull time than day. The worst thing is missing friends and family though. Of course it hurts, its major surgery, but I don't regret it for a second... I do look forward to not gurting anymore though! Lol!
Im not relatively scared of the pain, everyone is tolerated differently. Some said BA was horrible pain for me it wasnt, but when I had my wisdom tooth removed OMG i cried and screamed as the pain was throbbing
Remember to drink those liquids it will make things better. Especially if your body is dehydrated the pain will be stronger since your body's water mass helps healing.
I wish I was there, id give you a hug in theory if you felt like it hahaha
Quote from: pretty pauline on June 23, 2010, 06:05:35 PM
Yes Iv a good idea, but that will all change when you have your surgery, cute guys fully excepting you as a woman, a nice feeling.
I really only got very nervous about 2weeks before my surgery, my Mother did most of the organising, kept telling me I was doing the right thing, I got butterflies in my stomach the night before, the next morning my surgery was put back till 2PM in the afternoon, just before I went under the anesthetic my Mother and Father and 2brothers where at my bedside, my Mother just squeeze my hand whisper to me ''its all for the best'' my Dad just hug me, see you in a while princess.
Iv never regreted it, its a very very emotional time, now 2months time Im getting married, another very emotional day for me, a very big deal for any woman getting married, I get to be a princess all over again.
p
Aww Pauline, I love your story about your Dad saying that :'(. I wish my Daddy would say stuff like that to me.
I am very emotional at times, my consult with Dr. Mcginn was one of those times, because of my medical conditions i did not think i would qualify for surgery, she reassured me that i could, i gave her a big hug and the flood gates opened, then again the next day when i scheduled the date and paid my deposit, i am sure i will be a wreck in the month or so leading to my surgery next May.
I live in Cleveland too and wondered what it was, missed the news last night.
Paula
Quote from: paulault55 on June 24, 2010, 03:36:49 PM
I live in Cleveland too and wondered what it was, missed the news last night.
EARTHQUAKE!!!!
Quote from: Kristyn on June 24, 2010, 04:05:24 PM
EARTHQUAKE!!!!
LOL
Quote from: paulault55 on June 24, 2010, 03:36:49 PM
I live in Cleveland too and wondered what it was, missed the news last night.
Cleveland in the house!!
Quote from: MsGiselle on June 24, 2010, 07:38:38 AM
Aww Pauline, I love your story about your Dad saying that :'(. I wish my Daddy would say stuff like that to me.
My dad is always nice to me, even more so since I transitioned! It made sense to him why I wouldn't engage in "manly" stuff.
P.S. Tik tok, your time is almost up Giselle.
Quote from: SaraR on June 28, 2010, 06:58:32 AM
My dad is always nice to me, even more so since I transitioned! It made sense to him why I wouldn't engage in "manly" stuff.
P.S. Tik tok, your time is almost up Giselle.
I know, don't remind me :o lol. I'm getting freaked out more and more :P
Your big day is approaching Giselle, it will be all over before you know it, my Dad excepted more and more when he finally saw the girl I turned out to be, you must be very excited to finally be a complete woman.
p
Quote from: pretty pauline on June 28, 2010, 02:30:52 PM
Your big day is approaching Giselle, it will be all over before you know it, my Dad excepted more and more when he finally saw the girl I turned out to be, you must be very excited to finally be a complete woman.
p
The same here. My parents became more accepting as they saw how much better my life was becoming. Now, as surgery approaches, they've become my strongest supporters.
@ Giselle--You'll be fine. Think positive thoughts. We are all in good hands with Dr. B. and his staff. Just think of all the things you'll be able to do without that bag of marbles down below :laugh:
Quote from: Kristyn on June 28, 2010, 03:07:04 PM
The same here. My parents became more accepting as they saw how much better my life was becoming. Now, as surgery approaches, they've become my strongest supporters.
@ Giselle--You'll be fine. Think positive thoughts. We are all in good hands with Dr. B. and his staff. Just think of all the things you'll be able to do without that bag of marbles down below :laugh:
Amen sister! lol
My parents also have seen the good within since my transition! My proudest moments were when my parents were able to go longer then a week without saying my old name or using male pronouns, now it's like they erased the old name out of the equation.
Hmm no marbles don't there = A) Bikini, B) yoga pants without looking really weird down there, C) what is there not to do!!! ITS PURE FREEDOM yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Yes congrats Miss Giselle, take comfort in knowing you are not alone in the freaking out dept. I'm freaking and i still got 4 months to go :icon_yikes: but you'll get through it as many others have. Great things are yet to come for you.
My mother is surprisingly so supportive, I mean much more so then i though she would be.
edit: language
My mom is my biggest support system. I wouldn't even be having surgery if it wasn't for her. My dad on the other hand is a deadbeat, I sent him the nastiest letter in the mail 2 months ago. I really regret sending it now, I really would like if he could accept me, but I'm just not sure.
OH and THANK YOU to you girls ;D. I know Dr. B is an amazing doctor, I'm more excited about eating fast food FINALLY LOL ;D ;D. I had to stop for surgery and lose a lil bit of weight, but I'm going right back right after LOL.
Do you know if they allow you to eat after surgery? I'm gonna be so hungry, I was gonna ask my sister to sneak Mcdonalds in. I was gonna on the sly lol eat it.
Quote from: MsGiselle on June 28, 2010, 05:36:01 PM
I'm more excited about eating fast food FINALLY LOL ;D ;D. I had to stop for surgery and lose a lil bit of weight, but I'm going right back right after LOL.
Noooooooooooooo!Quote
I was gonna ask my sister to sneak Mcdonalds in. I was gonna on the sly lol eat it.
Nooooooooooooooo! McD's = DEATH >:-)
Quote from: Kristyn on June 28, 2010, 05:40:47 PM
Noooooooooooooo!
Nooooooooooooooo! McD's = DEATH >:-)
LOL :D. I can't help it. I been without it for MONTHS :-\
Quote from: MsGiselle on June 28, 2010, 05:49:09 PM
LOL :D. I can't help it. I been without it for MONTHS :-\
Understood, you're still young, but no more McD's after 30!!! ;) Otherwise you may end up looking like this...FWIW my intent was not to offend anyone, but you have to admit this is pretty funny
http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg (http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg)
Can anyone say super size? Did I say that out loud. :icon_redface:
Quote from: Kristyn on June 28, 2010, 06:03:24 PM
Understood, you're still young, but no more McD's after 30!!! ;) Otherwise you may end up looking like this...FWIW my intent was not to offend anyone, but you have to admit this is pretty funny
http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg (http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg)
MCD's at any age is bad, have you ever by accident a set of fries to rot? It doesn't exactly rot, it turns into cardboard!!
Quote from: Kristyn on June 28, 2010, 06:03:24 PM
Understood, you're still young, but no more McD's after 30!!! ;) Otherwise you may end up looking like this...FWIW my intent was not to offend anyone, but you have to admit this is pretty funny
http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg (http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg)
That's just so gross. McDonald's always makes me feel sick anyway, never liked it. BTW Giselle I'm freaking to so we can freak together, lol. Na, really chilled at the moment and excited. Ask me again the morning of my op, lol.
Stardust
Quote from: SaraR on June 28, 2010, 06:24:15 PM
MCD's at any age is bad, have you ever by accident a set of fries to rot? It doesn't exactly rot, it turns into cardboard!!
Yes! And let's not forget about all that sodium. Can you say cankles?
http://blogs.smh.com.au/lifestyle/allmenareliars/cankles.html (http://blogs.smh.com.au/lifestyle/allmenareliars/cankles.html)
McD's is gross. Now burger king, a veggie whopper with cheese and no sauces, YUM!! Good thing I can only afford to do that every month or 2. Fast food fries aren't fries, they are reconstituted cardboard as someone mentioned, so I skip those.
Quote from: Kristyn on June 28, 2010, 06:03:24 PM
Understood, you're still young, but no more McD's after 30!!! ;) Otherwise you may end up looking like this...FWIW my intent was not to offend anyone, but you have to admit this is pretty funny
http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg (http://athensboy.files.wordpress.com/2009/09/mcdonalds-mcdonald-27s-131219_468_698.jpg)
OH GOD :D :D.
I think I'm gonna stick to my veggie burgers instead :angel:
I also find it funny when people order ''McD's'' and super-size it and then order a diet soda :D :D.
Yay girl =) I can imagine crying for sure. I'm still a ways away longer than you so I'm trying not to get too excited....trying to just live each day that I can haha.
It's going to get harder as time draws nearer though =)
Hi Jerica
Your surgery ticker tape indicates it will be in February, that's a very good month to have it! Just like mine.
Take care everyone and enjoy your special day like I did mine. I still have vivid memories to this day.
Kind regards
Sarah B
Quote from: Sarah B on June 30, 2010, 03:14:00 AM
Hi Jerica
Your surgery ticker tape indicates it will be in February, that's a very good month to have it! Just like mine.
Take care everyone and enjoy your special day like I did mine. I still have vivid memories to this day.
Kind regards
Sarah B
Thanks Sarah =) Actually it's in March. It was originally in Feb but I forgot about my brother's wedding...so I had to move it up 2 weeks....not too bad. I'm excited =)
Quote from: MsGiselle on June 24, 2010, 07:38:38 AM
Aww Pauline, I love your story about your Dad saying that :'(. I wish my Daddy would say stuff like that to me.
I second that, made me have a tear to my eye,
im 2 months 1 day away, a couple of hours from now officially @ the two month mark and the actual fun begins w00t.
I think about it every minute of every day and I have for a long time. I will have an orci soon and SRS within the year. I wish I was going to Dr. Bowers tomorrow; I will not be happy until I have the vagina I should have been born with.
Pam
honey the day I got my packing out I went home, laid down, and cried my eyes out for a good hour. They were tears of joy, there is no feeling that even comes close. And like giving birth, it makes all the pain that went before seem insignificant by comparison.
I wish all you girls with upcoming surgeries all the best thoughts for good energy and healing. Keep focused on the prize and the doubts can't shake you, and afterwards focus on healing and you will have no regrets.
*big hugs for the class of twenty ten!* (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Ff050.gif&hash=f06e4e279974c327470aac7dcff14f3ffbbe83cb)
Chloe
Quote from: FairyGirl on July 06, 2010, 07:31:49 PM
honey the day I got my packing out I went home, laid down, and cried my eyes out for a good hour. They were tears of joy, there is no feeling that even comes close. And like giving birth, it makes all the pain that went before seem insignificant by comparison.
I wish all you girls with upcoming surgeries all the best thoughts for good energy and healing. Keep focused on the prize and the doubts can't shake you, and afterwards focus on healing and you will have no regrets.
*big hugs for the class of twenty ten!* (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Ff050.gif&hash=f06e4e279974c327470aac7dcff14f3ffbbe83cb)
Chloe
Thanks Chloe for the positive thoughts. I think the only thing that keeps me semi-calm is the fact that my srs date still seems so very far away to me. Hate to imagine what I'm gonna be like the week before :o
Quote from: Jessica.C on July 06, 2010, 10:46:58 PM
Hate to imagine what I'm gonna be like the week before :o
Hi all, I'm kind of excited right now with surgery only next week but I expect I will be freaking out when they take me down, now where's the tranquillizers, lol..
Stardust
Quote from: ƃuıxǝʌ on July 07, 2010, 12:55:09 AM
I'm getting cold feet about SRS; I don't know if I can honestly be bothered going through this gargantuan process if I don't need to.
I'm not hugely unhappy with my genitals, they're more annoying than anything else and I don't want to be incongruous when compared with other women.
But I'd probably be more happy if everything just...shrunk and was no longer recognisable as male genitalia.
Then again, the desire to be 'normal' reasserts itself and I'm back to facing SRS as the only viable option.
I guess I need to ask myself, "How often will I be placed in situations where others will see my genitals when I don't want them to see a penis?"
And the answer to that is probably "Almost never."
My boyfriend has no problem with my bits and I'm reasonably happy with how they perform sexually, so would it be like getting a nosejob when I don't need one and ending up with regret (and possible respiratory problems)?
ƃuıxǝʌ, I don't want to give you advice because what worked for me may not work for you and our needs are probably different, but what you say here resonates with how I felt pre-op. I didn't hate my boy bits – I found them annoying. I thought if they would just shrink down they would be less annoying.
But after getting everything re-arranged, I have a whole new outlook. I feel "right" for the first time in my life. I have a lot more confidence as a woman because even if no one ever sees what's in my pants,
I know – and it is
wonderful.
Quote from: FairyGirl on July 06, 2010, 07:31:49 PM
honey the day I got my packing out I went home, laid down, and cried my eyes out for a good hour. They were tears of joy, there is no feeling that even comes close. And like giving birth, it makes all the pain that went before seem insignificant by comparison.
I wish all you girls with upcoming surgeries all the best thoughts for good energy and healing. Keep focused on the prize and the doubts can't shake you, and afterwards focus on healing and you will have no regrets.
*big hugs for the class of twenty ten!* (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Ff050.gif&hash=f06e4e279974c327470aac7dcff14f3ffbbe83cb)
Chloe
I had thought that GRS would be just another step in the process – like changing my name. As my daughter drove me from the hospital after getting my packing out I broke down and cried in the car. I was a mess – deep, wracking sobs. I had never cried like that before. I was just so happy, so relieved. It was a core-deep, down-in-my-soul happiness that is beyond description. Whatever pain I had suffered in the previous 66 years didn't count, because I was finally OK. I hope that you all can experience the same joy.
*more hugs to the class of twenty ten!*
Kate
Quote from: FairyGirl on July 06, 2010, 07:31:49 PM
honey the day I got my packing out I went home, laid down, and cried my eyes out for a good hour. They were tears of joy, there is no feeling that even comes close. And like giving birth, it makes all the pain that went before seem insignificant by comparison.
I wish all you girls with upcoming surgeries all the best thoughts for good energy and healing. Keep focused on the prize and the doubts can't shake you, and afterwards focus on healing and you will have no regrets.
*big hugs for the class of twenty ten!* (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Ff050.gif&hash=f06e4e279974c327470aac7dcff14f3ffbbe83cb)
Chloe
Awww thank you Chloe!
Quote from: ƃuıxǝʌ on July 07, 2010, 12:55:09 AM
Then again, the desire to be 'normal' reasserts itself
I'm nervous about the whole process myself and totally agree about the desire to be normal. I'm going to be 41 5 days before my SRS. I figure if i am gonna do this now is the time.
Quote from: K8 on July 07, 2010, 08:38:30 AM
Whatever pain I had suffered in the previous 66 years didn't count, because I was finally OK. I hope that you all can experience the same joy.
WOW Kate 66 You Go Girl ;) And thanks
Quote from: SaraR on July 06, 2010, 06:49:25 PM
I second that, made me have a tear to my eye,
im 2 months 1 day away, a couple of hours from now officially @ the two month mark and the actual fun begins w00t.
AHEM COUGH you are 1 Month 4 weeks and 1 day Away ;D. Congrats Ms. SaraR.
In a few weeks you'll be down to 30 days then you'll go to Montreal. Have your surgery :). Then Kristyn will be next :o. Then we'll be at Ms. Jessica's surgery day ;D. All Brassard Girls..
Quote from: MsGiselle on July 09, 2010, 07:31:56 AM
AHEM COUGH you are 1 Month 4 weeks and 1 day Away ;D. Congrats Ms. SaraR.
In a few weeks you'll be down to 30 days then you'll go to Montreal. Have your surgery :). Then Kristyn will be next :o. Then we'll be at Ms. Jessica's surgery day ;D. All Brassard Girls..
Why do I get the "shocked" icon?
Quote from: Kristyn on July 09, 2010, 07:49:56 AM
Why do I get the "shocked" icon?
Because it's been ''15 YEARS'' :o. Your inner ''slut'' is going to be coming out in about 6-8 weeks after surgery ;)
Quote from: MsGiselle on July 09, 2010, 07:51:41 AM
Because it's been ''15 YEARS'' :o. Your inner ''slut'' is going to be coming out in about 6-8 weeks after surgery ;)
:laugh:
Quote from: Kristyn on July 09, 2010, 08:03:22 AM
:laugh:
I think your gonna give MissZanta a run for her money ;) :D
Quote from: MsGiselle on July 09, 2010, 08:22:23 AM
I think your gonna give MissZanta a run for her money ;) :D
I don't know? I think MissyZanta's really got herself a
thang going ;)
I've been reading your myspace page--whoa girl!!! You didn't strike me as the type :o I'm likin' it!!!
I'm gonna PM you a link to some funky s**t you might like. Hoping I can turn you on to something new or old :)
Quote from: Kristyn on July 09, 2010, 08:41:03 AM
I don't know? I think MissyZanta's really got herself a thang going ;)
I've been reading your myspace page--whoa girl!!! You didn't strike me as the type :o I'm likin' it!!!
haha ;) NASTAY :D
Quote from: MsGiselle on July 09, 2010, 07:31:56 AM
AHEM COUGH you are 1 Month 4 weeks and 1 day Away ;D. Congrats Ms. SaraR.
In a few weeks you'll be down to 30 days then you'll go to Montreal. Have your surgery :). Then Kristyn will be next :o. Then we'll be at Ms. Jessica's surgery day ;D. All Brassard Girls..
Yep! And I agree, my inner **** will come out :P
The reality of my upcoming surgery hasnt sunken in yet. 5 months seems so far away yet so close. I still feel like I have a long way to go since I am doing a two step procedure with Meltzer. I'm sure it will all hit me come December. I can't wait.
I'd have had my srs by now if I hadn't said 'No Thanks' to the surgeon who only does basic inversion and told me that due to too long a delay I've shrunk too much and there's be a good chance I'd wake from surgery to find nothing but a blind slit quarter inch deep.
I'm now waiting for surgery date with a more up to date surgeon.
This morning after the endo had told me that my T was almost zero and my E was up in woman range I really did feel calmer and more complete than I have for a while...almost as though I'd now lost all obvious maleness...it was a curious feeling but nice.