everybody, I am Anisha a 18 year old biologically male . I used to cross dress from my young days but lately there has been a peculiar problem .Till my 17 years i had some times the feeling of changing sex but it was temporary. But lately i have started to mansturbate but not by watching porn but by watching girls in music video .I dont touch my organ but i sleep on my stomach and allow my organ to be rubbed on my bed. I imagine myself as the girl in video and once i mansturbate after it I feel relieved and I can then concentrate on other work . It happens around 4-5 times a day.It wastes my time and am unable to do anything he i an with someone because then i cant do it. I have a girl whom i love very much but some times i feel as if i an gay and should break up with her . I imagine myself as a wife with my husband And kissing him like female actresses do in the television.but after i mansturbate i comeback to practical world and realize i love my girl friend .I think i am homosexual obsessive compulsive disorder as i sometimes feel afraid that i am gay.But i sometimes try to convince myself that i am gay and trans . I think i am also suffering from transexual obsessive compulsive disorder .I dont know why it has happened to me but please everybody i need more explanation and help on it.please guys help me.
Thanking you,
Yours Anisha
Hi Anisha,
I think you need to talk through your issues with a gender therapist. There is nothing wrong in your masturbation fantasy. It doesn't mean you are TG, gay or straight. But it would be sensible to talk through your concerns with a professional.
Cindy
Anisha
Welcome to absolute normality. :D
Masturbation is the best fun you can have alone. I too, and I know without asking, that almost everyone here remembers looking forward to the next time I could do it again. ;D
There is nothing abnormal about feeling and thinking differently after. As you get more secure with yourself and who you are, that will be less noticable.
As Cindy say, have a face to face chat with someone about it.
But take your time before making any decision, especially about your girlfriend.