After i saw my gp and told her how i feel a day ago iv felt really emotioal and i felt that i couldnt keep it from my mum anymore and my mum kind of knew that i like womans things so i decided to tell her i felt that i needed too and she was not too happy but she was understanding i told her about my visit to my gp and that im going to see a specialist becuase i want to be a girl and the only thing she did say is that it would be a shame if i was to become a woman and she asked me if i was gay so i told her i wasnt.I think she hopes that i can get to the bottom of these feelings i have and maybe move on she also said she i shouldnt give in to these feelings but i explained to her that in the past i tried to shut these feelings out but it only made things worse.
my mum also said i shouldnt hide my fem things as she knows iv got them.
i hope that when i do see the specialist i can find where these feelings came from i hope that its nothing to do with the problems i had in the past and the bully that happened to me and i hope these feelings i have are true and that i can have a sex change in the future.
I know that if i do become a woman my mum will be uspet but i think she will still want to know me and i also think i will have to move out and get a job so im going back to college so i can get the qualifications i need to get a job then hopefully i can get a job move out and live full time as my fem self then hopefully by the time iv done that i should be really for hrt then a sex change.
Its not going to be easy and theres alot iv got to do and theres alot at stake but im going to take each day as it comes i am so glad that my mum didnt freak out today when i told her and i now feel that i can talk to my mum about anything i know some time in the near future i will have to tell my dad but i will when the time is right.
one thing i forgot to add is that when i told my mum she said she thinks the feelings that i have might be something to do with the loss of my sister but i dont know hopefully therapy will help me find this out.
i feel lot happier now i told my mum i guess i am lucky and before i told her i really feared that she would freak out.
i jusy hope she hasnt pinned her hopes on me not becoming a woman in the future.
all i know right now is that iv taken the first steps i needed to take by telling my gp and talking to my mum and hopefully things will work out and maybe just maybe in the future i can find my happiness and peace of mind.
Well done you. [hug]
Her first reactions are perfectly normal for many parents and in your case, represent a great platform for moving things forward with her support. You must be very relieved.
And yes, there are going to be things she won't understand but it's your job to make her understand these feelings you have. The only way I personally know of to understand yourself and these feelings is to act on them, and you've made the best start you could hope for by doing something about them.
Mums are great friends and allies to have in this process. :)
Two good steps, Tammy.
Try not to go so fast that your mom can't keep up. Sounds like she'll be very supportive.
Robyn