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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Kat_Misunderstood on August 12, 2010, 01:51:07 AM

Title: Ready to go
Post by: Kat_Misunderstood on August 12, 2010, 01:51:07 AM
I know a lot of you are going through the same thing, but I've finally gotten to the point where I feel that no one really loves me or even cares for who I am.  Everyone, including family treats me like I've lost my mind, and can't think for myself.  I feel like I have no one to help me through my transition; doctors, therapists, family, friends, or anyone.  About to just get in the truck and drive to somewhere new.  It feels terrible to have no one understand at least halfway what I am going through.  I never thought that this would be as difficult as it is now.  I have been happier than I have been in my entire life right now, but I just have no one to share it with, and it just hurts.
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Alainaluvsu on August 12, 2010, 02:06:46 AM
Are there any support groups in the area? If not, maybe finding the nearest major city and going to theirs might be the best you can do for your sanity. Also, you can share with us anything you'd like. I know that's not what you're looking for, but maybe those that have been there - done that can help you better if they know about your situation in a more specific way.
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Kat_Misunderstood on August 12, 2010, 02:54:34 AM
Thanks Alaina, I've found a support group about an hour away, but work has kept me from being able to meet with them.  My boss is pretty cool though.  I am going to try to go next month.  I will get through this with my sanity intact...........but I guess I just need some kind words and encouragement.  Transitioning is just too difficult with nothing but negativity around me.  I'm hunting a new therapist around Atlanta, if anyone has any  suggestions btw. 
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: lilacwoman on August 12, 2010, 03:25:09 AM
well at least you've got a truck and you live in the wonderful US of A so basically is there anything stopping you packing a bag of pretty tops and skirts and making yourself look as nice as possible and setting off for a break and see how you get treated outside your own town area?  A few days in a new town might clear your thoughts.
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Cindy on August 12, 2010, 04:02:59 AM
Quote from: lilacwoman on August 12, 2010, 03:25:09 AM
well at least you've got a truck and you live in the wonderful US of A so basically is there anything stopping you packing a bag of pretty tops and skirts and making yourself look as nice as possible and setting off for a break and see how you get treated outside your own town area?  A few days in a new town might clear your thoughts.

Good advice that. Stay at a motel whatever and be you 24/7 for a few days. Relax and enjoy.

Cindy
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Karla on August 12, 2010, 02:24:35 PM
Loneliness is very painful to endure, for anybody let alone some one who's transitioning.

I would go on that break if I had a truck.. and if I knew how to drive.
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Kat_Misunderstood on August 12, 2010, 03:28:12 PM
Yea, I think it would be great to stay somewhere else for a few days......just get away from things.  I really do love where I live and really don't want to leave my family, It's just gotten so tough here lately :-\ 
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: aubrey on August 13, 2010, 03:52:12 AM
Quote from: Kat_Misunderstood on August 12, 2010, 01:51:07 AM
I have been happier than I have been in my entire life right now, but I just have no one to share it with, and it just hurts.

No advice to give just wanted to say I feel exactly the same lately. It's like I finally know who I am and what I want and my heart is open and there's......no one.
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Kat_Misunderstood on August 13, 2010, 07:45:39 PM
Thanks everyone, I'm about 400 miles away from home.  Feel better already, about to go have a good time >:-) 
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: NDelible Gurl on August 13, 2010, 09:21:53 PM
Sounds like you're feeling better! I empathize and hope you have a safe and great time :)
Title: Re: Ready to go
Post by: Alainaluvsu on August 13, 2010, 11:42:02 PM
Fantastic! Be safe and have fun! Hope it helps you clear your mind and find some sanity!!