My dad left when I was 5. My first memory of putting on a panty was around that age ...don'y really know why. Then at, 6 I spent a summer with my dad and my stepmom. I was looking at her putting on makeup, and she asked me if I wanted to try. She put lipstick and mascara on me and told me I would have been a beautiful girl. I went back to My mom, and began to slowly developed effeminate mannerisms. I remember by 8, I would rip my underwear and tie them making it like a panty. I would also tuck my penis between my thighs pretending to be a girl. By 11, I had somewhat of a curvy figure. My mom and her friends would compliment my bubblebutt and my thighs. I tried to be accapted as a boy, but some boys would tease me. I kept secretly putting on panties and nylons and looking at myself in the mirror. later on I had an experience with another boy. Then at that same age I was molested by an old neighbor. I think after reading up on those things that happened to me, now at 45, I may suffer from some sort of GID.
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Thanks for welcoming me Janet. Was looking for a forum where I can express my feelings. Im 45yrs young ..was married for 15yrs... 2 kids. Been divorced for 2. Been living with these feeling for as long as I can remember. Anxiety, guilt ...I know I need some sort of therapy, but don't have any insurance at the moment. thanks again, be well.
Hi Josylyn,
Good to meet you. I think your right on both accounts.
You do need therapy to get your feelings sorted out and find out if it is gender identity disorder.
Maybe you can set up a plan were you can make payments.
Just a thought.
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Jillieann
Quote from: Jillieann on August 24, 2010, 07:53:50 PM
Hi Josylyn,
Good to meet you. I think your right on both accounts.
You do need therapy to get your feelings sorted out and find out if it is gender identity disorder.
Maybe you can set up a plan were you can make payments.
Just a thought.
Welcome to Susan's,
Jillieann
Gotta agree with this. Good advice. Welcome. There are people much like you here. Need good information? It's here. Check it, and us, out. Good luck.
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