There goes the neighborhood :D
I went to an online forum. Since it was a big board and I have a tendency to say what's on my mind, I decided (at least I consciously thought) to use the cover of male drag for posting. Then, as I got more involved in the forum-a very hetero guy kind of forum, I started getting really into actually pretending to be male-including talking about my *ahem* junk...
And found myself WANTING TO OWN A PENIS.
I said now, "Oh boy, this is wierd."
But I also wasn't all like "Gotta get rid of my boobs," though. I'm kind of neither here nor there about them, other than wishing they were perkier, therefore not requiring a bra (I live where it's hot a lot).
I want muscles, but am not willing to have my hairline recede(and yeah, both granddads went bald, I'm sure I've got the genes for it.)
Add to that I live in the very buckle of the bible belt-we do crazy religious wingnut right. Presenting as genderly too ambiguous is going to get me job discrimination. I don't mind what people think of me-until it impacts my paycheck-then I mind a lot.
None of this is strange terrain for me. I'm married to a woman, who, before I met, had her 'outie' turned into an 'innie'.
I feel both confused, excited, and like some sort of puzzle piece *may* have just slotted into place for me.
*waves hi*
Hi rite_of_inversion, :icon_wave:
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Hugs and Love,
Janet
To clarify-I think I'm going to end up being androgyne. Probably. Not 100% for certain.
That's what I meant by "another one of those". ;) Sorry...but I don't feel like one or the other fits the entirety.
When I met my wife, well, I actually thought about and questioned my gender, having not done so before. At the time, I didn't decide I was a male.
Now, I think it might be more accurate to say I'm not majority male.
If YOU think it's confusing...
Hi rite_of_inversion,
Welcome to Susan's.
This is a great place for gender confused people.
Allot of us come here that way.
All kinds of info and people to help as you explore who you truly are.
By the way you don't really have to fit in a particular category (label) to be happy.
See you around.
Jillieann