I can't believe how amazing this week has been. Back in April 2nd, 2008, I had the worst week of my life. The week of November 16, 2010 is now the best week of my life.
I don't know why I was so scared to go out. But apparently I pass. Quite well even.
Tonight (saturday night) was the transgender day of remembrance. We went to a local lake for a candle vigil. My mother is supportive and went with me, and it was so great that she did. She is a bit handicap, she requires a walker to get around for longer distances like this. So we lit some candles, and walked around the entire lake, which was several miles.
We (my mother and I) fell behind the group, but this really sweet guy stayed and chatted with us as we slowly made it around the lake. We talked a bit, turns out he's gay (Oh well, I have a BF, so it's ok). He asked what brought us there. My mother had said she was there supporting me, and he looks at me and goes "oh are you a lesbian?", I said, "No I'm straight.", he replies "oh your trans? I couldn't tell."
I paused for a bit, stood there for a second a bit dumb founded. This was the first time anyone said anything like that. I had explained to him that this week was the first time that I had ever been out full girl mode. He was quite surprised, and continued to reassure me that I look 100% like a girl, and I even sound like one (I never really tried to train my voice, cool).
We got back to the group, after being so far behind. We got caught in another conversation with another transgirl, we had explained again that I am trans, and she stared at me a bit, and gave me the same type of compliments.
The guy from earlier decided he wanted to walk me around and introduce me to people. So he introduced me to the host of the event, and there happened to be reporters around that overheard that it was my first time really being out in public for such an event. They asked if they could interview me, I didn't mind. They asked me a few basic questions, but seemed to really be interested about how it felt being out for the first time. I'll post a copy of the article when they get it to me.
I was invited by a bunch of the people from the group to go to a local spot that they like to hang out at. So I went, after dropping off my mother. There was this totally sweet old lady at the bar who waved me over and introduced herself, and says... "Are you with these people?", I answered with a "Yah.", she goes "so your trans?", "well yeah." I responded. She goes, "You totally don't present in any way, shape, or form as a male, and you could easily fool me. How did you get your voice so good?"
I was like... O.O - Holy crap. I didn't think I passed at all, with or without makeup. But apparently, with makeup, I pass quite well.
So it's decided. I'm going full time. I'm so tired of living as a boy. I spent the entire night celebrating with my cool new friends. One bought me a drink. Now it's 4am and I'm exhaaauuussstteeeddd.
Just thought I'd share my experiences with you guys.
All I can say is BRILLIANT!!
Thank you for sharing that.
I'd love to have an experience like that.
a day and night that transsexual dreams are made of. well done.
Amazing!! .. that's great news! I am really happy for you! :laugh:
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And... Your mother sees that you will be ok in the real world.
Thanks for the smile :)
Time for that leap of faith.
GO FOR IT.
Thanks everyone for your support ;D ;D ;D
I am very very happy right now. And yes, I am now full time. I think I'll add another ticker to my signature ^.^
!!! So stoked for you !!!
Quote from: alia on November 21, 2010, 01:24:54 PM
!!! So stoked for you !!!
Thanksss!!
It's kind of cool. I went from no time to full time in less than a week. From no confidence to feeling like I can take on the world in 1 night. If you see a trans person, compliment them. It is the greatest thing you can do for them.
I had such a huge lack of confidence in myself. A few well placed compliments made me feel like I was flying.
That is absolutely wonderful Samantha ;D
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*HUGS*
YEAH!!!!!! Celibrate your life girl. Thank you for posting your wonderful night I smiled through the entire post. I am so happy for you. This is your new begining, YEAH, YEAH and YEAH!
I was out with one of my girl-friends earlier. We went to this huuuuuge shopping area, like a gigantic 5 acre outdoor shopping mall.
No awkward stares.
No snickering.
No snarling.
No female ninja's jumped out and arrested me.
I passed. I walked around with confidence, and I passed. I even got hit on at one of the bars we went to. She got hit on more, cause she is sooo pretty.
Living the dream girl :)
That. Is. AWESOME!
But seriously, your story was truly inspiring. Thanks for sharing!
-Gwen
No female ninja's jumped out and arrested me.
How do you know that, you'd never be able to see them, so you can never be too sure.
And I've always liked social/support groups for the most part. I pretty much skip the whole 'support' part of them because they resemble meetings, but once the meeting ends its fun.