Hello everyone!
Yesterday marked the eighth month of HRT for me, and I could really not be much happier about where my transition has taken me.
When I started all of this, I was still quite confused about myself, and conflicted. I was moody and full of bitterness and anger. I wasn't often a pleasant person to be around. I had actually been very much "Goth" for many years because it so readily fit who I was.
April is now a very happy and sunny person. People I know notice and comment on how much more positive and full of life and love I am. That's not to say that I am perfect, by any means; I still have to struggle sometimes with my personal demons when they rear their heads to try and drag me back down into that horrible dark place where I once lived.
Now, I strive for balance. I look for and try to surround myself with positive people and positive energy. I work very hard at keeping negativity and negative energy at bay. I am also trying to fully embrace myself, and love myself in EVERY stage of my transition because the way I see it, transition offers a person a unique opportunity to shed their socially-enforced construct and sort of rebuild themselves in their OWN image, not anyone elses. We also take with us through our transition the unique viewpoint of having lived a completely different life, and seen things through completely different eyes.
I love being me. I wouldn't choose to be trans, but I do choose to be ME.
Last night I went to the Mall of NH with my friend James who kept remarking on how well I pass now. He said it was amazing to see my evolution from the time we met until now, when as he put it, I don't look any different from any other woman. The mall was very busy being the beginning of the Holiday season, and not ONE person looked at me twice... except to just LOOK at me.
For the first time in my life, I truly feel like I fit in. I belong. I'm also falling in love with the most AMAZING man who loves me and treats me with the care, respect, and love I have craved my entire life. On top of that, I am now awaiting my court hearing for my name change, and as of January 1st, I will be April full time, including work.
I just wanted to share my happiness with everyone here! You've all been a great support, and I want to thank each of you for giving me your unique viewpoints, advice, and empathy.
Love,
April Dawne
Congrats on 8 months April! It's great to hear that things are going well for you ;D
Thank you April Dawne. It's really good to know you're doing well.
If you can find time from your wondeful social life, would love to hear more.
Take care.
That 's really great to hear, April !!!!! :)
I am so glad you have found you true self. Passing , Happy, a Boyfriend . All wonderful news. :)
I can really relate to having a positive new outlook on life. I am a year on hrt. Before that basically I , ate ,drank, worked, slept. Didn't talk , never smiled. Now......... I smile allot, talk allot. I don't drink And as it turns out I actually have a personality.. :)
Hugs, Erocse
I hit 8 months last Thursday. :) Cheers!
Wonderful April! I look forward to the peace that comes from acceptance. I am only a couple of months into HRT and have found myself questioning who I am because I have spent too many years living as someone else for everyone else.
Rylee
@ April Dawne:
Hon, yours is THE BEST success story I've heard yet! WONDERFUL NEWS! Peace! ;)
Ah the glory of 8 months. And the happiness of become truly whole. And a boyfriend to boot. ;D
May it all become that which you wish it.
@Janet, thank you very much... I've never blushed and giggled as much as I do with him... I love how feminine he makes me feel.
@Lacey.... OMG thank you =] I wouldn't call mine the BEST but I definitely do feel blessed to have had such a good transition so far, thanks again!
@Moonrise, thank you! Things (at least from my perspective) can only get better once you accept and embrace yourself =]
@Sydney, that's wonderful! I hope you feel peace and happiness, and may you have a lovely transition =]
@Erocse, thank you very much! And yes, having a more positive outlook definitely makes a difference, and I too rarely ever drink =]
@Spacial, I will definitely be keeping everyone here updated =] if any of you have Facebook, look me up; April Knight in NH, or use my email address april.knight29@yahoo.com
Thanks again everyone!
~April Dawne~