Hello. :)
Call me Jeh, pronounced Jay. It's not the name I'm going to eventually go by, but it's a good gender-neutral in between.
I'm a 26 (27 in 9 days) year old FTM university student. I'm a music major, voice. I'm a high soprano, which will definitely change once I start T.
My voice is the biggest hangup I have about starting T. I'm scared I won't be able to sing at all. Other fears include "what will my peers say?" "will people still talk to me?" "will my landlord kick me out once my voice changes and it becomes obvious?" "will I be able to afford transitioning?"
Despite these, I still want to start T. I question, and some days I'm less sure than others, but I can't pass without it, and hanging out in the androgyny zone just isn't enough, because I still get "girl" and "ma'am".
I don't get huge amounts of gender dysphoria, which made me wonder for a while whether transitioning was right. I didn't grow up "knowing" I was a boy, I just knew that being a girl wasn't right, but didn't know there were people who switched their gender. I hate my body, but I always thought I was a girl, albeit it never came naturally to me and I always felt like I was acting.
I guess I get some dysphoria, as I cringe when I get "ma'am"d. Discovering that transitioning FTM was something that people did made me realize that was me.
I questioned for a while because I couldn't see myself as a "manly" man. I figured that since I wasn't a manly man, I must be a confused woman. Then I realized that I would rather be seen as a feminine man than an androgynous woman. I'm going to be a man who enjoys musical theatre and talks to his cats in baby talk. I don't care if people think I'm a girly man.
Nice to meet everyone.
Welcome.
As a fairly masculine MTF I totaly get it.
There are alot of FTM dudes in various stages of transition and ages here.
Sup jeh? Welcome to susans man
You sound like you're sure where you want to be and that's awesome. I did stagecraft for two years in high school. I met a lot of guys who loved theatre, music, and talked baby talk to their cats but were some of the manliest guys I knew so some bio guys are that way to. Happy early birthday, see ya around the site :icon_wave:
Hi Jeh, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 4400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
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Hugs and Love,
Janet
Quote from: cynthialee on December 06, 2010, 09:09:32 PM
Welcome.
As a fairly masculine MTF I totaly get it.
There are alot of FTM dudes in various stages of transition and ages here.
Like Cynthialee, I'm not a girlie girl either. Lot's of us here get it, bro. Know what? Forget about labels. It's all about you, how you feel, what you want. All the fears and "what if's" you posted here are perfectly normal questions all of us ask ourselves when we come out to ourselves, admit our situation and decide to do something about it.
There's nothing like a great support group to answer your questions from been-there, done-that experiences. This forum is exactly that kind of support group. There are plenty of transguys here, and most of them are young like you ... perhaps somewhat younger. They are great guys, and they're very smart. You're bound to "click" with some of them, so settle in and feel at home.
Post away. We'll read your posts with great interest. ;)
Thanks everyone, I feel welcome. :)