Today has been a real rollercoaster.
This afternoon I had a therapy session and I got my hormone letter! I have an appointment Thursday to get in to see an endo soon. I'm super excited. Reading the letter was very weird as I'm not used to seeing Ms. (Last Name) and that meaning me at all! I'd say it was one of the best moments in my life when I read that letter, things are finally happening.
It's a shame that a few hours later my relationship of 4 years came to an end. I've talked about some recent changes previously... https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,88101.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,88101.0.html)
..... today I pretty much found out that for the past several months (even before I started dealing with my gender issues) she had begun swapping pics (some erotic) texting and talking to other guys. I also found out that she even had a date set up for this weekend when she went out of town with a friend.
What bothers me the most about it all is that she's made me jump thru so many hoops and try so hard over the past month to keep this relationship alive, and not only that, over the past week she's led me to believe that things were getting better; had I not stumbled across what I did today, who knows when she would've told me.
When we talked, she went on to say that what I'm doing (transiton) is "weird" and being in a relationship with me "is weird" and she "just can't do it". Everything she said was very derogatory. I couldn't believe it, she just was not the girl I've loved and lived with for the past 4 years; the person I spoke to today.... I do not know her.
So, the begining and an end today.... that's life I guess.
~Sara
Great news about your letter. About loosing your relationship-it's never pleasant when we find someone has been 'playing' us but you just have to move on and be who you truly are. You're young and there will be other relationships to enjoy. I'm happy that you are making such good progress towards your goals.
Randi
We are sorry too, that your girlfriend "played you." On the good side you did get your letter. You are free to become who you wish. It is the first day of the rest of your life. The first step toward better times is to imagine them.
Good Luck and Best wishes.
~Hugs~
Patty
I'm sorry.
So in the end, she proved she's not worthy of someone as good as you.
I think it would have hurt less if she'd been honest with herself and you, about everything-but she wasn't able to.
Hang in there.
She did you a favor because now you will be able to fully experience this change on your own terms and not in relation to her perceptions about it.
As hard as it is, being out on your own you now can explore your true self. As much as I missed my ex, separating was the best thing that happened.
I doubt I would be where I am at had we not separated. Take this time to get to know Sara.
Aww. So sorry to hear that. At least your life is moving towards a better future. Hang in there , girl. hugs
:'( :icon_bunch: :eusa_dance:
Sara I am so sorry to hear that the relationship ended like that.
It is hard. I'm sending you some big long hugs.
But I am also happy for you.
To get you hormone letter, way to go.
Girl you are now on your way.
High five and another hug.
Jillieann
Thanks for the thoughts everyone. I have much to say but I'm still having a hard time gathering my thoughts, I do appreciate you all being here for me.
~Sara
We do understand hon.
But we are here when you want to talk.
Jillieann
It's an awful situation to discover someone has been lying for ages, but it will be a relief to be free of a relationship that was going to hurt more as it went on. :'( Been there, got the t-shirt. Big hugs sis, you have shown you are strong and will find someone worthy of you. We are all here for you.
Sandra.