I need someone to talk to. I can't see any good in life anymore. I want to give up and end everything. I don't know what to do anymore. My problems are beyond complex.
No, I don't want to phone a suicide hotline. They wouldn't understand our problems. I don't have anyone to talk to about this who would understand. PM me if you wouldn't mind talking. I'm at the 11th hour now.
You will get through this.
I'm sorry it hurts so much.
Pain goes away.
Life has a lot to offer and you have a lot to offer life.
Just ride this out and try to distract yourself. It will get better.
edit: consider checking yourself into a hospital inpatient facility for people in crisis. Usually it lasts a couple days until a week. And often there are programs after that for part time treatment.
Often when we do not see the good in life anymore, others can still see it fine. Trying times have a way of making things seem hopeless right before they get better, I think the old saying is "It's always darkest before the dawn." If you've been strong enough to make it this far then there's no reason to give up now, it would be a shame to turn back after all the effort you've put it, according to that ticker in your sig you have top surgery soon, that's something to look forward to, isn't it? One of the goals you've been working towards? A step closer to being happy, so obviously there's some light still there. I don't know what's causing you these feelings but I have no doubt that they are complex, maybe even confusing and scary, but you've already made progress, that is proof that your efforts, everything you're going through, your time is bringing you closer to your goals and to what you need to be happy. Depression and sadness, even hopelessness are temporary inflictions, please have the strength to withstand this temporary issue, there's still a lot left in life, even though I don't know you, I know you're a human being, thus I know there's still a lot in life, it's just a universal fact even if it doesn't seem that way right now.
Hold on, you can make it through whatever challenge you may be facing, you just have to try and believe you can, just look at how far you've come already, that in and of itself is a testament to what you are capable of surviving and overcoming. I wish I could be of more help, but I'll not ask details as I know you do not know me, thus I will not ask you to share the details of the situation. Just know that I can understand how bleak things can look sometimes, you just have to work through it, find the strength that has gotten you this far and pull from that, ya can do it, after all, you didn't come all this way to give up now, there's no reason to throw in the towel. I hope you can get through it, though I'm sure I'm not the only one here with that hope.
My biggest problem is I live in absolute fear and anxiety. I'm usually strong but I feel so weak now. I feel weak just asking for help instead of pushing through it like I always do. But, I think I've reached my breaking point.
Radar, I agree with Victor. Sometimes it takes another person to show you the light so it is great that you made this topic to talk about your feelings
I do not share your experience, but I can imagine very well the way you feel. Whenever I feel down I am in need of some sort of distraction, and discovered that I find happiness in the most simple things. A nature hike, walking on the beech with the wind blowing through my hair, a blazing sunset, I make a roadtrip or I take my aircraft up to play among the clouds. You can try similar things, it really helps. These little glimpses remind me that there is so much more to life. Instead of looking at what you don't have, you might want to take a look at what you already have, what you have accomplished so far. You can shape your own future, do not forget that.
You are not weak for asking help. It is not manly to cover up your feelings, hoping they will dissolve on their own. Instead you show real character to face these problems and realizing you can use the support of others.
It will get better.
I talked with someone and was told I need to learn to relax and not worry or think so much about an unknown future. I've been told this before and have tried but I just can't seem to turn my brain or worries off. It's exhausting, constantly battling everything. I am becoming a weary soldier. I need a month long nap.
Quote from: Radar on December 22, 2010, 06:08:04 PM
My biggest problem is I live in absolute fear and anxiety.
Also, this reminds me of the hypervigilance seen in PTSD. Which can be incredibly draining and a horrible way to live when left untreated.
I'm glad you have kept posting. It's nice to hear your progress.
Rooting for you
Quote from: bearded on December 22, 2010, 09:02:35 PMAlso, this reminds me of the hypervigilance seen in PTSD.
I myself have wondered if I have this. What can be done about it?
Quote from: Radar on December 22, 2010, 09:11:26 PM
I myself have wondered if I have this. What can be done about it?
I have been meaning to find out more about that.
Getting out of the situation that causes it is a good start (of course). Some people can't do that, though.
Probably therapy and/or medication.
I have listened to some different meditations/visualizations that can be helpful in general.
I wish I knew more about how to cope with it, and in fact I really need to upgrade the priority of that on my to do list.
I'm pretty sure a lot of it can be overcome, though, so there's that.
And like you have mentioned a couple times, if you could escape for a little while, even for a safe and rejuvenating weekend, it might give you some much needed relief.
Quote from: Radar on December 22, 2010, 09:11:26 PM
I myself have wondered if I have this. What can be done about it?
There are medications available that can curb those incessant thoughts you can't get out of your mind. They're not anti-depressants but other medication usually used for social anxiety. See your doctor and they will prescribe it for you. It is a band-aid kind of thing while you seek proper counselling to get well again. Believe me they work. :)
Hey man, if you want to talk about this (or anything, really), I'm always on MSN. Feel free to add me if you like - aodhan@live.jp. I'm a really good listener and I've been told that I can give some good advice.
The offer's there. I hope you feel better soon, man.
Hey man, feel free to message on msn p_chanmisao@hotmail.com or aim PChanmisao
I don't know anything about you so I certainly can't say whether or not you have PTSD. If this is the case though, most therapists would probably try to deal with the trauma by having the patient re-experience the emotional trauma to relive the emotional suffering with the intent that it be therapeutic rather than traumatic. SSRIs, such as Paxil and Prozac, that are used in the treatment of other anxiety disorders is what will generally be prescribed for PTSD. Good luck, and please see a counselor of some sort if you continue having problems and certainly if you are feeling suicidal.
Radar,
I don't know about PTSD but I googled it and came up with a Wikipedia link that seemed informative.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Posttraumatic_stress_disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Posttraumatic_stress_disorder)
Stress is a funny thing, that can sometimes seem addicting. Almost if there is none I am missing something I am sure of it. I looked up thyroid problems once and it suggested that hyperthyroidism can also cause feelings of stress. I thought that was interesting. An imbalance in one part of your body can cause to to feel worry and stress.
I hope you will be feeling better soon. It is good that you are able to talk to everyone here on Susans. It is not a sign of weakness at all. It takes courage to share your burdons with others and accept assistance.
We are all wishing for you to have better days. One day at a time. There is nothing we can do about tomorrow. It is here and now. What can you do today to make today a good one? As Octavanius said take delight in the small things you have now. The talents and gifts you have.
Many many big hugs.
Patty