Well it's Christmas so I was trying to put my transgendered feelings of wanting to be male out of my head for now. So today my sister said "let's go shopping" and I'm like okay whatever. I needed a couple of pairs of jeans anyways. I think this is proof I am trans though. I was looking at the guys' clothes side. I knew I couldn't go and try some on because my sis was right there, also I don't nearly pass as male AT ALL. So I thought "fine, I'll get it over with and try on the girls jeans my sister picked out for me". And when I put them on...I just...I don't know. I wanted more than anything to take them off and get a guys pair of jeans. Then my sister came with some tank tops and said "these are cute, here, try these on!" I was ready to break down. Maybe it was because of my long day and lack of sleep in general but I've never felt this way about clothing before. I think I am transgendered. I am going to book an appointment with my family doctor after the Christmas holidays and get things straightened out. And in the shower I wish that my chest was gone and I had something inbetween my legs. I dunno. I need help though, that's one thing I DO know. I posted this on here because I needed some encouragement/support and just people to listen to me and understand me.
Quote from: Josh T on December 23, 2010, 08:58:30 PMI am going to book an appointment with my family doctor after the Christmas holidays and get things straightened out.
I think that's a very good idea. Make sure you do that. You're young, so you do have time to get things figured out, and I have no idea whether this will be good or bad news, but when I was your age, I felt exactly the same things (well, in reverse, lol), but there was no Internet, and I had no idea how to figure it out, so I suppressed it, and here I am all these years later, just getting started. Anyway, you do have questions, and you do have conflicts, and you do need help to get yourself figured out. Seeing your doctor and perhaps seeing a gender therapist is a very good plan at this point. And don't fret. You're not crazy, you're not bad, or shameful, or anything like that. And you're not alone, either.
I'm glad you're setting up an appointment with someone. It certainly can't hurt!
Colleen, all I can say is thank god for the internet! I don't know what I would do without it.
Well, you'd probably end up like me and so many others, who didn't figure it out until much later in life. You are very lucky indeed to live in these times. Hopefully in future generations it will be better still.
owch yes thats a scenario I recognize, I don't know why but fashion seems to something rather powerful.
Good idea to get help, I hope you figure it out :)
Yes, thank God for the internet indeed... and thanks for all your support. :)