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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: KylerG702 on January 01, 2011, 09:30:20 PM

Title: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: KylerG702 on January 01, 2011, 09:30:20 PM
Before starting T I was, mildly put, emotional. I would cry at the drop of a hat and the tiniest things would make me ridiculously angry. Now that I am on T, its like I don't even have moods at all. I haven't cried since my first shot. Which is great to me, but I feel like this also is causing me to be unmotivated. I don't feel like doing anything anymore really, because I feel like I just don't care anymore. It's nice not to be stressed but I feel a little weird feeling so little.

Has anybody else gone through this at all? Does it fade with time?
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: Carson on January 01, 2011, 09:40:14 PM
Once I started T it felt like I had literally lost the ability to cry. I used to cry not really because I was upset but because I was so aggravated or angry. It lasted awhile but I can cry now. It isn't the same and it takes a lot more for me to even have the feeling of crying.
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: xAndrewx on January 01, 2011, 09:57:57 PM
I'm going through the can't cry thing myself right now so I don't have advice from personal experience but a couple of friends have told me it does change a little in time but they still don't get really mad or upset/depressed like they used to
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: Squirrel698 on January 01, 2011, 11:50:41 PM
No moods at all?  I haven't cried since I started T and at first that was strange.  Now however I'm use to it.  I would say that I feel more steady with T.  As if I have a good sense of purpose.

Right now your body is probably adjusting.  Hopefully it will even out for you pretty soon
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: some ftm guy on January 01, 2011, 11:52:48 PM
i don't know how smart this is to say but i would kinda love to not feel any emotions right now, I'm either depressed or anxious, some kind of sad/ angry or surprisingly upbeat that i think I'm too happy to have GID and people would wonder if i really do need to transition. to be fully void of all emotion still beats crying (or almost crying) every week or so. it's good to see that it'll eventually go away with T that I'll feel way more normal and evened out i guess.  :)
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: Michael Joseph on January 01, 2011, 11:55:30 PM
Quote from: Noah the brave-ish on January 01, 2011, 11:52:48 PM
i don't know how smart this is to say but i would kinda love to not feel any emotions right now, I'm either depressed or anxious, some kind of sad/ angry or surprisingly upbeat that i think I'm too happy to have GID and people would wonder if i really do need to transition. to be fully void of all emotion still beats crying (or almost crying) every week or so. it's good to see that it'll eventually go away with T that I'll feel way more normal and evened out i guess.  :)

Im with you about all the emotions, and excited to hear that it will probably go away with t too
Title: Re: Feeling apathetic...
Post by: Lee11 on January 02, 2011, 10:54:49 AM
Hmm...I had to think about this one. I have never really been one to cry a lot but I still have that ability when things get too much etc.
If anything I have become more in touch with my feelings over the years on T but that may be more of a result of life events rather than hormones.
I guess I am not afraid to say what I think or feel anymore - I used to keep that locked up for fear of rejection. Now I feel that life's too short not to take chances...