I want to cry so bad but im holding back tears. I have moments where i feel like im beautiful and i will pass but then on the other hand i feel like i will never pass. Its like im a monster and i have so much work that needs to be done. My cousin said im beautiful and my gid therpist said i have very soft features, not even an adams apple. I want to be pretty like any other girl. Why do we have to go through this? Why couldnt it just be simple and we were born in the right bodys. Its so frustrating and depressing. im not on hormones yet, but i will be in a couple of weeks. Im still underage but my bday is 7th and i will be legal. I feel like time is wasting. I point out flaws in myself and i just want to be happy with myself..but i cant when im not in the right home(body). Im just so sad :(.
Hi Rose,
It all takes time my darling. We are our worst enemies. We think we look like a bloke in a dress. Then go and walk around a shopping Mall. Most women are plain to ugly, and I do not mean that with any disrespect. We have expectations of looking like Playdoll models. We can't ,very few people do. Be honest with yourself. Find your hidden woman. I did this a few times and really loved it. I sat in front of a mirror for hours. I put make up on and took it off, I just sat and practiced. Girls do this throughout their teenage years. We haven't done that. If you have real problems go to a make up counter and ask for help. Go to a GLTG make up artist and see the magic they can perform.
Every day is another step. Just keep walking.
Hugs
Cindy
When you are young a few weeks feels like an age I know. When you get older it rushes by in a second. One thing which doesn't change is that life is a struggle for everyone.
You are doing everything you can. You are in the right place, and you have taken steps to get the best result that you can. Hormones do change the way you look and starting at 16 or 18 will produce the biggest and best possible result. Will you be pretty? I can't tell you that, in fact no one really can, because a fair bit of beauty is in the eye of the onlooker. If one person finds you attractive then, to them, you are pretty.
I know its horrible to be told to be patient, but really it is the only thing I can say. You WILL get there and, like me (I originally transitioned in childhood), you are starting out from a much better place than those who wait until they are in their 40's and 50's. So, like me, try to just be thankful that when we are old we will have had most of the right life.
Take comfort that you are not the first youngster to have to be delayed. When I was young the rule in the UK was that you had to be 21 before treatment and I was actually encouraged to de-transition for a few years whilst I was waiting so that I had "Properly tried adult life in my original gender before doing anything irreversible". I will leave it to you to imaging how confusing that felt! But I got through it, and in my early twenties I was back and on HRT, I made it through the wait and so can you.
As Cindy says, that's exactly what teenage girls do.
The smart ones find those flaws and turn them into assets.
Real beauty is mystery. Things which incite interest and make people look twice.
But as Jenny rightly points out, it doesn't happen over night. The best things in life, they take time. But it's worth it in the end.
Girl I know this feeling perfectly. All trans women do. Regrets of things that were or were not in your control will do nothing but eat you up. Try to look forward instead of back.
I did a video about this last year sometime.....
Meant to be (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXRCBcdDr9s#ws)
Thanks all for the replies it was truley usefull and helped me lots. Hugsss.