Hello to everyone! I'm *kind of* new here, but not completely. I've been lurking this forum for about a year, and have used the chat on rare occasion, but I just feel that it's time to get involved... Reading can only do so much... Plus I like to converse probably a little more than is even considered healthy and am feeling quite the urge today to not 'hold back.'
Like many others I'm sure... I have bounced around from forum to forum trying to get a feel for what the community is all about, and I've seen and learned about all the different sides to being trans-gender. None of which I consider good or bad, or right and wrong, but all just so... Different. I like the mix of people that seem to use this forum. The Androgynous, Cross-dressers, Transsexuals, and everything in between or otherwise lumped as TG all in the same community feels nice to me now, whereas I have had major hangups about labeling myself in under the trans-gender umbrella. Everyone is different and has the right to live free of judgement after all right? It is a bit self punishing for me to say that I may be a bit transphobic at times, but it's simply been because of issues with my own sense of self (just an honest warning). Needless to say I don't plan on bringing any negativity into the forums, but truth instead.
Anyways LOL... Enough seriousness and all that stuff. About me: Well, I am 28 years old. I am still confused as ever about all things gender and sexuality, but I honestly don't plan to ever have any true resolve with that. For now I just live as I can, the best I can, and continuing to get closer to peace and contentment. I am feminine in nature/demeanor/sexuality, male physically for the most part... I consider myself to be androgynous however. It's just what the mirrors of the world show me about myself. I fall under the MtF label, but I'm very much looking too masculine to be accepted as female by all of society. I get read sometimes as female, but more commonly as male, and yes it hurts. I'm not totally sure of how far I need to go into transition. My plan is just to keep working on the problems until this horrible dissonance goes away, whenever that may be, and however I have to get there. I have been in therapy for over two years, and have been on hrt for just over four months now. I'm not fulltime or parttime or anything, I am just 'me' and a physically changing me at that, so I don't really get the whole guy mode girl mode thing yet. I have Andro mode and thats really it for now =/ I enjoy a variety of things, as do most people. Some of my favorite things are cooking and baking, sitting outdoors at the parks on nice days, nature walks, drawing and painting, shopping, and conversation.
Sooo... I hope to meet a lot of interesting people here! I also hope to get plenty of honesty, learn, and stimulate my mind *hopefully* to the point of gaining more resolve in these pressing gender issues I face. Thanks for reading anyone who got through this whole thing! ;)
Hi Snoeball, :icon_wave:
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Hugs and Love,
Janet
Hi Snoeball
what ever you me be, MtF, androgyne or what else, you are welcome here.
I think you get a lot of support because we support our brothers and sisters on their journey.
And btw I read you as female
hugs
annette
Welcome to the site Snoeball :icon_wave:
Snoeball,
Thank you for the introduction. There are allot of really smart and kind people here. It is an amazing site. We look forward to your posts.
Hugs.
Mrs Erocse
Hello Snoeball,
So glad you join are world wide family.
Please join in on the forums.
We laugh, cry and share allot here.
Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann
Thanks everyone for the kind hello's. It's perfectly fine to read me as female, as I *do* consider myself female, just more on the andro bisexual realm of femininity =) I am really looking forward to being a part of the forums!