A few days ago i came out to my best freind Dylan. Amazing reactions, not only does he completely accept me he even said "who you are on the outside doesn't cahnge who you are on the inside". My problem here is coming out to everyone else. Im in Highschool. My mother in the past has shown to be a very hatefull person towards transsexuals, to the point of making fun of a freind of hers who was a FtM. Dylan who has some decent problems at home has offered to let me move in with him in a year or so when we are old enough to support ourselves somewhat. His mom is a very nice woman and very open minded. My only problem is i feel i'm pushing it. I want to start on horemones as soon as possable and i don't know if i can make it to 18. I know i'm a MtF TS and have known for years. I'm going through puberty now and it's killing me to see all these changes. I'm afraid that i'll have to wait to get on horemones and start realy living as a girl. If moving out is what it takes i'm prepared to do so. I won't be able to be an open TS under my moms roof. *side note my dads dead*
Honey, you have my sympathy. It is a tough situation. My only concern would be any legal ramifications since your mom is still your legal guardian. I frankly don't know how that would work or what the law has to say about it.
As for the things that will happen to you with puberty, these can be upsetting.
But remember, many Susans' members have only managed to start when they are well into being fully grown and just look. They are beautiful.
OK, It's a lottery to an extent. It would be great if you could start now. But you can't. You know that.
You can begin when the opportunity arises.
One thing I've learn here, is it is never too late.
Now, think very carefully about your plans. Don't, whatever you do, throw away your opportunities for education. That must come first, before anything.
Don't lose hope.