Right now.
Through the magic of the internet, I have widened the avenue for an even smoother transition via my blog and re-created e-mail accounts complete with a huge contact list of supporters. Wednesday I see the doctor about getting started on hormones, and I had the most intense conversation with my wife this morning regarding the nature of all of this.
The conversation was incredibly hard to hold, and addressed many, many concepts of my identity, behavior, and her sexual identity that are evolving as I continue along this path. I had resorted to some form of escapism- drowning myself in social networking to flee from the horrid family situation I found myself in. Of course, that only made things worse. So we hashed things out, and we've decided we're going to work this out. I will no longer shut myself off and prepare myself for her withdrawal, and she will just ride this wave as far in as she can. I think she'll love it, she already loves me ;)
So, now I can work on busting the rest of the way out of my shell in better conscience, and I'm learning that the things I do are girl things because I'm doing them and I'm a girl (thanks, you know who). Seize the world, it should be your oyster and all that.
All of this is becoming easier. And it must be because I know what I'm doing.
;D
Please excuse the tired old expression. It just seems so appropriate.
You go, girl!!
I love your attitude, Emma :)
Life, is good, ghooooooooooood........................ Emma! Love your spirit. :D
That sounds good Emma. I'm happy for you. I hope it works between you and your wife.
Thanks everyone. I'm gearing up for the huge, huge paternal grandparent family meeting (which will most likely fracture the family in so many ways) and leaking out on FB. For those of you who don't know (and I think that may mean all of you), I was considered the most successful of all of my paternal family's children, and I was pegged to be the next patriarch of my family. My grandfather has taken me under his wing, and now I have to get out from under it and shatter that expectation. Nobody lied: this isn't easy.
Quote from: EmmaM on March 13, 2011, 05:47:05 PM
I will no longer shut myself off and prepare myself for her withdrawal, and she will just ride this wave as far in as she can. I think she'll love it, she already loves me ;)
Life is good but is ooooh sooo much better when shared with those you love.
hugs
Susan
Quote from: EmmaM on March 14, 2011, 11:46:54 AM
I was pegged to be the next patriarch of my family. My grandfather has taken me under his wing, and now I have to get out from under it and shatter that expectation. Nobody lied: this isn't easy.
Good luck and much psychological and emotional strength to you, Emma.
You're definitely going to need them all. But you will survive, no matter how it goes.