note: This is a continuation of the other thread concerning post-op disclosure (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,95088.0.html)... :)
Last night was just so perfect. We had planned another date, so I met him down by the wharf where he arrived on the ferry from downtown across the great harbour. It was a warm Autumn evening, very humid thanks to the earlier rains which had cleared and left the sunset sky a beautiful watercolor wash streaked with orange and azure and violet across the bay... We sat in the little open restaurant right down by the water, all the sailboats lined up like regal swans on the rippling Tasman Sea. We drank wine, and we talked about everything and nothing. After dark we took a walk out the pier, then down along the beach, under the tall and stately Norfolk Island pines which have solemnly guarded the shoreline for over a hundred years. It was there we paused, he put his arms around me and kissed me, softly, passionately. As human nature far older than the pines swept over me, I felt myself yielding to him, to his strong embrace, to his passion. Then he took my hand in his and we walked some more, stopped and kissed some more...
Out beyond the lights, the surf crashed into the rocks at the edge of the beach as my heart pounded, and my body could not help but respond warmly to his kisses. Though I had not necessarily planned on this being "the time", I knew that I couldn't let it go much further without telling him. This was it: all or nothing, cards on the table. I told him I had something I needed to say, and asked if we could walk back. So we made our way back around near the dock which was busy with people walking, talking, drinking, dining, and enjoying the beautiful night. I spoke to him of having a birth defect, which had been cured through the wonders of modern surgery. I told him everything was as it should be, now. I think what I was trying to say didn't quite register on him at first, but he told me not to worry, it was okay, I could tell him anything... I knew then I could because he was just being so sweet, but I broke down crying when I said I was afraid he wouldn't like me if I told him. Finally after thinking about what I'd revealed he understood, and it was done. He took me in his arms again and told me everything was okay. He told me all he sees is a woman he finds sexy and attractive and wants to be with; he said he would have never guessed if I hadn't told him and even if I hadn't, it would have been fine anyway.
And that was that. Above, the soft moonlight shone down on the water as he pulled me close to him and kissed me again... and again, and again. We walked back to the little seaside restaurant, hand in hand, and he told me he thought I was just acting shy before because I didn't want to be with him or something. I assured him this was not the case. We had more wine and talked on as the evening grew late. I could not have asked for a more perfect response, and he was the perfect gentleman. He wants to see me again, so we will see what happens... :)
the view from our table
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Oh, Chloe! It is hard to type with the tears of happiness for you in my eyes. How wonderful for you. I wish you every happiness.
*hugs*
Kate
Chloe, it reads as if it was out of a Harlequin Romance Novel. I really hope that thing go the way you wish.
Beautiful story Chloe, I am so happy for you and wishing all the best for this beautiful romance to continue :)
Hugs
- Virginia
I love it when a plan comes together! ;)
I hope the romance continues to grow and blossom.
Wow. That is what we all dream of.
Wishing you all the happyness!
Chloe that is a beautiful story and gives me hope and inspiration. I'm still a ways away from SRS, but the basic question of "who will love me" is always on my mind. I have already been badly burned by my first coming out experience to my wife (now ex-wife) and the idea of coming out again to new the new love of my life scares me.
Congrats and I hope he ends up being the man of your dreams.
I'm happy for you Chloe :) I hope it works out for you, he sounds like a special guy.
Lovely night and excellent writing. Please post additional chapters.
Beautiful. I'm a bit teary now actually, I hope things just keep getting better for you.
Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement. :) I get attached far too easily... as Valerie said the feeling of utter vulnerability when you open yourself up to someone is almost too much to bear. I'm such a hopeless romantic... :-\
Pleased it all went well for you Chloe. I can only imagine how vulnerable you must have felt, I know I would. However, better to be honest and tell him now than further into the relationship when attachment can be so much stronger.
Good luck.
PS. Is that Manly in the photo, looks familiar the bay.
yes that's the cove.
Since the other night, I've talked to him once on the phone, and he made another date for next week. He did tell me this was all new to him and me being the paranoid that I am I wonder if that means he's having second thoughts. He did seem anxious to go out again though. I know what he said and how he acted even after I told him, but I keep thinking, omg what if he changes his mind? Dating is hard enough even without the added pressure of the whole history thing to deal with.. I'm almost wishing I hadn't said anything now. My god I feel like a 16 year old girl with a crush... I mean, this is only the first time I've dated since my transition. I need to get a grip lol :-\
I will second Valerie's comments. He sounds wonderful. He also sounds like someone who very probably will continue his pursuit of you. He probably needs to do a little thinking just because this is new to him.
I have recently been exposed to a number of people who are accepting and friendly but who have surprisingly little knowledge or understanding. I've been on the fringes of the gay community for over forty years and wondering and learning about gender for longer, so I was totally surprised by how little they knew. Give him a little time. Answer his questions. Help him to understand.
And as Valerie said, be a good girl and wait for him. It's his perogative to chase you. You are such a pretty woman (and smart and charming), he'd be a fool to let you get away.
- Kate
Loved reading that Fairy Girl :)
I hate to be debbie downer but I've had guys be that way, act completely fine and even call to check in but then that was it. I hope it wasn't too soon for him to know.
Thank you Valerie and Kate for your good advice :)
Mija, the difference is I'm post-op and he knows it. Of course that's always a possibility with any guy, but I think it will be fine. If not, hey, he wasn't the right one anyways.
Hi Chloe,
This sounds great. I hope it works out but you seem to be doing all the right moves, and you are a gorgeous woman. I think he is probably thinking of you and doing naughty fantasy things, typical male :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
Hugs Sis
Cindy
OMG Chloe! I cried. That's so beautiful. Gosh how I hope to hear those words someday from the right man when I have to tell him.
Absolutely beautiful when things come together, thank you for sharing your special moment Chloe.
I'm sorry, but I have to know ... WHAT HAPPENED?????
Did it all work out OK, Chloe? I so, so hope that he was the kind, understanding, accepting man we all dream of and that the reason you have not posted more is that you are having such a wonderful time that you don't want to jinx it by telling us all.
If that is the case ... YAYYY!! Good for you, girl!!
And if it isn't, well, I don't even want to consider that possibility ...
Quote from: Valeriedances on April 15, 2011, 03:45:30 PM
Noooooooo, we dont want to know!!!!! {{{ hides her head under the pillow }}}
Its a mystery, its our fairy tale.I vote for storybook ending where the prince and princess rides off together into the sunset.
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Well of course we all vote for THAT!! I just want to hear about the fabulous kiss in the final frame! :)
Hi, Chloe,
I know everybody is waiting for the continuation of your story, so romantic so beautiful. Even if the story does not end with the proverbial "and the live ever happy," you will always have that wonderful memory.
I can see that the beauty of your soul shines through your writing, a hart of a poem. I know I will never be as beautiful as you are and time will forbid me from experience that kind of love, but just knowing that somebody like you can achieve that bliss feels me with great joy, thank you for sharing,
Love
Kate D
I'm with Valerie, I don't want to know either! lol My warmest thanks to everyone who has replied. I'll just leave this one open for now, with a promise to share more true romance stories in the future. ;)
Sometimes the princess gets her prince, sometimes a broken heart, but it's all part of life, which is infinitely more beautiful on this side of transition than I ever thought mine could possibly be. No matter what happens, my dream has already come true, and nothing can ever change that.
All you need is Faith, Trust, and a little Pixie Dust! (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.pixiehollowforums.com%2Fforums%2Fimages%2Fsmilies%2FFairy%2Ftinker.gif&hash=05b33ca33834a18e0c1e9ef6cb220c94006d924d)
*hugs* (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Ff050.gif&hash=f06e4e279974c327470aac7dcff14f3ffbbe83cb)
Chloe - The real moral of this story is that whether or not you happen to have got a prince or a frog this time, you are and always will be a beautiful princess. And isn't that what it's all about?
thank you Carlita, you're very sweet :) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fmore%2Fflowers%2F005.GIF&hash=fb4132e59412794b294961be6ba0135e7fd7e096)
Oh Chloe! Making me cry...
We seriously need to catch up <3
Oh Jen I know! Still have my Aussie number? Call me!
Quote from: FairyGirl on April 18, 2011, 11:18:35 PM
thank you Carlita, you're very sweet :) (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fmore%2Fflowers%2F005.GIF&hash=fb4132e59412794b294961be6ba0135e7fd7e096)
Why thank YOU ... and you're welcome!! :)