I randomly stumbled upon this site searching for some tips for passing.
It's nice to see such a large transgender community online! Hopefully I can settle in here~
You can call me Envy.
I'm a 19 year old FTM from New England.
I haven' taken the initiative to begin a true transition due to the uncertainty that I've faced for most of my life.
I've always thought I should've been born a boy, especially since I was strongly influenced by my older brother when I was little.
I was always treated differently than my brother, forced to wear dresses against my will, and having my life restricted, despite feeling like a little boy just like him.
Doing Tae Kwon Do when I was 4 is what made me feel masculine initially, but my lack of confidence and confusion of gender boundaries caused me to be bullied for the majority of my life, especially being teased for being thought of as lesbian.
I honestly thought I was just another one of nature's eff-ups until I learned about ->-bleeped-<- in 9th grade, in which I was forced into a religious private school. (Worst year of my life, not only due to the fact that I'm an atheist, but due to the inequality of genders in Judaism)
I didn't really begin to identify myself as transgender until starting college last fall, where I met another FTM, although I've been convinced for about 4 years now.
Since meeting him, I started my transition little by little, firstly by dressing more masculine, wearing a chest binder, and tying my hair up and into a hat,
but recently, I've become unsure yet again of my gender, especially since I'm becoming close to a boy for the first time in my life. [I've only been with girls in the past]
Hopefully becoming part of this community can allow me to reflect on myself and learn more from others ♥
Recent pic of myself: http://i1019.photobucket.com/albums/af315/gokugashuu/blahhhh.jpg (http://i1019.photobucket.com/albums/af315/gokugashuu/blahhhh.jpg)
Hi Envy, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 5900 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another brother. :icon_hug:
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Hugs and Love,
Janet
Hi Envy
Welcome to the forum.
Confusing times for you right now.
Just take your time for it, transition is not a simple desicion.
When you're unsure about it, just wait a little time.
You can visit a therapist who knows about gender issues for help to make things more clear for you.
You're hoping to be a part of the community, but you're allready a part of the community.
So make yourself at home and keep us updated, maybe we can help you by answering your posts to make things more clearly for you.
I hope you have a great time here
hugs
Annette
Hi Envy :icon_wave:
Welcome to the forum. As Annette has said, it is confusing times for you right now. Luckily, time has a funny way of pointing us subtly in a certain direction. Patience is of the utmost importance now. Take your time with your decisions and don't rush anything.
Anyway, enjoy chatting to your new family here.
Huggs
Maegan
Hi Envy
Welcome to the forum. This site has been a blessing for me. I hope you will find it as encouraging as I have.
Luv
Jas
Hi Envy, ah, New England, where you can't count on the weather.......no, wait, you can count on the April showers to start right on time! Hugs, Tracey
Welcome to the forum, I'm new here too but feel like I'm settling in nicely. Hope you do to.