i was having a particularlly rough night when i started texting one of my childhood freinds from my old neighborhood. we essentially grew up knowing eachother and had become very close and this past year even had sex....and now i've just been informed that he's moving.
i love him as a freind very deeeply, but nothing i say can convince him to stay.apparently theres this absolutely stunning girl hes in love with and...welll....once again i'm just not a priority.i'm so tired of the few freinds i make either abandoning me for someone else (that is if we're romantically linked) or moving so far away i never see them.i cried like a baby and i cant stand crying.can someone just pat me on the back and tell me things will get better? and that one day i wont be so painfully alone?
love,
alex
I have one friend in real life and one friend online, the one in RL is always too busy so I only see him every few weeks and my friend online is in a similar situation as me. We both spend too much time alone indoors and don't get out enough and meet people yet we still whinge about it. We're both very introverted and only need to fill the hump of friendship once every so often yet most people out there like to spend lots of time with their friends and if you ever seem distant they think you don't like them or their company etc blah. I don't know.. it seems so hard to find people that have such similarities.. especially when those people spend a lot of time at home instead of going out!!! >___< ...then if you find one they might drift away and you have to find someone else, I don't like that but that's a part of life I guess...change!!
loneliness does suck but until I start going out and filtering through all the people that I don't blend with then it's going to remain, I'm not as shy as I used to be so I don't worry about it just need to actually make it happen! Maybe I'll get used to it before then? :O
ive developed into a natural extrovert through therapy and practice...but it doesnt pay off.people just dont click with me...
and as it turns out this situation is worse than i thought. i confessed my feelings for him and now learned that hes getting married....at 19!!!!god help me, i've spent the whole night crying and trying to convince him of my love. i feel so pathetic.i want to find someone who would cherish me the way i do them....romantically or no.
It does take time to make friends. Also we have to show ourselves friendly. I learned this when I was an usher in church. Quiet and reserved by nature, I put myself out and made some great friends.
However, people do move on and it's time again to make new friends. People come into our lives for a season then move on. It happens to all of us. Don't despair. There's new people to meet. Also be yourself.
Gennee
:)
I watched as a city worker climbed up a beautiful and gi-normous weeping willow tree and cut all its branches off, one by one, and then attack it's trunk. It's a 4 foot stump now but supposedly it will grow back. Maybe friends/life is just like that, people hurt us and we're suppose to grow from it.