So Next Thursday I'll be on an airplane, headed for Thailand.. and SRS
I think that the one word I can say to describe what I'm feeling right now is, "overwhelmed." One minute I'm elated, the next, on the verge of tears... Everything's paid; I've had my last therapy session, my last support group meeting... all I have to do is get on the plane. I think I'm most concerned about being so far away from everything I know for a month.... I'll miss my kids, my Mom... But then I'm excited to meet other TS women from all over the world. I trust my surgeon and staff... I trust myself in that I made the right decision in Suporn.
It's like a fairy tale... I remember tucking my parts when I was 11 years old and wishing they weren't there.... Now, I'm leaving home and will come back changed forever... and feeling right. OMG... I'm really doing this.... and it feels amazing.
Jessica, I am SO happy for you. I dream about my day and I can only imagine what you must be feeling. You have been so supportive of me here publically and behind the scenes. You deserve only the best and I know this will be everything you dreamed it will be. You will be in my thoughts next week and know that I and many here will be sending you good vibes. Good luck hon.
Quote from: JessicaR on May 20, 2011, 12:00:03 AM
So Next Thursday I'll be on an airplane, headed for Thailand.. and SRS
I think that the one word I can say to describe what I'm feeling right now is, "overwhelmed." One minute I'm elated, the next, on the verge of tears... Everything's paid; I've had my last therapy session, my last support group meeting... all I have to do is get on the plane. I think I'm most concerned about being so far away from everything I know for a month.... I'll miss my kids, my Mom... But then I'm excited to meet other TS women from all over the world. I trust my surgeon and staff... I trust myself in that I made the right decision in Suporn.
It's like a fairy tale... I remember tucking my parts when I was 11 years old and wishing they weren't there.... Now, I'm leaving home and will come back changed forever... and feeling right. OMG... I'm really doing this.... and it feels amazing.
How exciting, I only hope one day I will know the feeling.
I hope everything goes well for you, I'm sure it will. :)
Awesome. I just hope when my day comes for surgery that I don't die from the excitement.
Fantastic news, Jessica!! I seriously doubt anyone could fault you for feeling such a range of emotions. I'm just a few weeks away from a far simpler snip, and I wish you all the good luck and health and fortune you can possibly endure. Heal quickly!!
congratulations Jessica!! (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cosgan.de%2Fimages%2Fsmilie%2Fliebe%2Fa055.gif&hash=09c31e3d3e9f03f2ca1e44008cb973d551e61797) I like the way you put it, "come back changed forever". I know exactly how you feel, it is one incredible change for the better. I wish you all the best in your journey and healing.
First off, congratulations! This is truly a surreal time for you.
I was a wreck right before mine and it was mostly due to being off my estrogen. One of my girlfriends brought me a bag of Hershey's kisses. When I got all out of whack, crying, emotional and generally unstable, I found that about 3 of those chocolate kisses helped bring me back to some measure of stability.
Now I fully understand the medicinal value of chocolate for women. There truly is such a thing as "chocolate therapy".
Since I returned "changed forever" and got back on my hormones, I'm stable again. It's a good thing, because I was shoveling M and M's like there was no tomorrow... :)
Yay!
Congrats on the upcoming big day Jessica!
Congrats sweetie
It's like a fairytale isn't it, holiday for a month in a beautifull country and coming back as the one you've always dreamed off to be.
Have a smooth recovery.
hugs
Annette
Have fun. Its a really LOOOONG trip :)
Foods great, people are remarkable.
You have to get to see the Kings Palace. Absolutely amazing history. PM me and I'll get you the name of a good driver for a day in the city. About 300 Baht will get you a whole day of good stories, real foods and fantastic shopping
Hi Jesscia
It's good to hear that your special day is nearly at hand and my thoughts will be with on the day. Try and remember as much as you can, so that you can pass on your knowledge and experience to others that will come after you. I wished I was as excited or euphoric as many as you all have been, when I had my surgery. Alas that was not the case, but I will tell you this. I'm so contented with what I have done, that I doubt that I will ever be as contented and at peace the day i woke up from my surgery.
Take care and I wish you all the best for your surgery and your future.
Warmest regards
Sarah B
Quote from: JessicaR on May 20, 2011, 12:00:03 AM
It's like a fairy tale... I remember tucking my parts when I was 11 years old and wishing they weren't there.... Now, I'm leaving home and will come back changed forever... and feeling right. OMG... I'm really doing this.... and it feels amazing.
I can imagine (only) how your emotions are crazy right now. Hang in there, focus on all the fun you'll have dilating :D ;D that should help :P
Yes I remember doing this when I was young, thing is I still look down there and wish it wasn't there, and its about the same size I was at that age :D
Best wishes
Shelly
Know the feeling well JessicaR, I had to keep pinching myself from when I boarded the plane till just before I was operated on to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I'm sure everything will go well for you. Best of luck.
I'm flying to Philadelphia not Thailand, one week from Monday not this Thursday, but we're both going to be May girls! Everything you wrote I sooo feel! You have captured the emotions perfectly! Thank you hon. Good luck to us both. For the girls above who've been there, thank you for your words. And for the girls who've not yet made that trip, your time will come.
The past is dead - long live the past - for someone. The future is coming - long live the future - for us!
Susan Kay
Good luck out there in Thailand, Jessica! Just sure to set your watch 11 hours forward for the local time. I hear there's totally awesome shopping, beaches, and food, there; make sure you try them. :) You deserve this Jessica; glad to see you can finally reach your dreams. Although, with that said, I don't know how you can stand the wait (in a good way, of course), I'd be looking at that ticker every second.
And, as far as the fairy tale: May you leave happily ever!
Big hugs, good vibes, and karma!
~Jessica
(PS: Thanks for your offer, it's so generous!)
I can say that I really wasn't concerned about the week before my operation. The moment I was waiting for happened the moment I woke up after. I then knew that what I had needed for so long had happened. It was a wonderful feeling.
Teresa