its time for me to, go. i just wanted to let you all kow that i love you so much1 i would say that i am going to miss you, but thats highly impossible where im going. im sorry if you think that i am weak. ou have no idea what im going through. good bye to all my friends and family here, you have helped me tremendously.
Much love
Superkitty
I am hoping you mean to leave Susan's. Which is your call. If you mean the other, please don't. Talk to you doctor or therapist.
Hugs, Sis.
Well whatever you do is your call. If you're going to miss us that's a good sign though, as you'll be around somewhere to care. So good luck, Hail and Farewell.
You and I have disagree in the past, but I have admire your moxy, you never come across as a quitter. Do not check out Girl!
Courage,
Kate D
I don't know you, but have read some of your post, so I do know that you are going through some hell and suffering. I'm thinking this post here is to let everyone know that you want to end that. Maybe you are posting because you sincerely want to say good-bye forever, or that you are hoping that someone will help you change your mind, lend you a little extra strength to go on. I've never had to go through what you are, hope I never have to, but if or when it does, maybe my thoughts might be the same, maybe I wouldn't care anymore, but still some glimmer of hope would be there that maybe, just maybe if I continue on something may change to make it better, but again I haven't been there to say for sure how I'd feel or what I would ultimately do. I've been sitting here contemplating what to say for quite some time, just sitting reading your post over and over again as well as other topics you've posted in, what can I do, how can I help her? It sounds like you are giving up on life, or what has been passing as life for you lately. You got me crying for you, for real, I wish you well whatever your decision be. I don't think you are weak.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Please leave instructions with a friend or family member to tell us when your final day has passed.
I will miss you.
Hugz and luv,
Cynthia Lee
Hi Kitty
I hope you're not talking of what I'm affraid for you're talking about, because the former posts were a bit hopefully.
I'm gonna mis your input honey.
You're right, nobody knows what you are going trough, I try to imagine but you know how it is in real life.
Goodbye sweetie, you're in my thoughts.
Love, hugs and kisses
Annette
You're not weak, and you are loved! :icon_hug: I hope something changes, and this isn't really goodbye. But if it is, please take care of yourself, and goodbye. :icon_hug:
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Alex
Kitty,
If you are leaving Susan's I wish you well with your future young lady.
If you means elsewise (I hope you don't) I hope that you will reconsider.
Every day that we push forward there is hope but when we give up there is none.
Please seek help if this is the case kiddo.
jez!!! I am such a friggen puss! I WANT to give up so bad!!! I really really really really do!!! But....... ****, i cant, not yet anyways. i have at least two more weeeks of radiation to go, maybe as many as four. They'll take a picture of my stupid brain and then determine if i need chemo (they prolly will want me to do it). This radiation is bad enough, but chemo?!?!?! Does anyone have any friggen idea what that crap does to you?
Quote from: superkitty036 on May 29, 2011, 04:05:10 AM
Does anyone have any friggen idea what that crap does to you?
My best friend's mother went through chemo as a result of breast cancer. I saw and heard that it was terribly hard for her to get through, but she did and she's alive and happy today because of it. Kitty, I hope you can find that fighting spirit, the will to live, and fight through the hard times to find that happiness again. It's worth it, and you know you have no end of supporters here to help you when you are feeling like giving up.
Yes I know.
Hang in there Kitty. I realise it is Hell but you will get better,
Hugs
Cindy
You are nearly there Kitty, just a few more weeks darling. We are all thinking of you. Hugs.
Karen.
Hang in there Kitty.
We're waiting for you pet.
Most chemo causes fast dividing cells -including the cancerous ones- to die. The most fast diving cells in your body are those of your gut, so chemo usually comes with a plethora of digestive problems. Nausea, diarrhea, vomiting, and anorexia. Medicinal marihuana help to take the edge of theses effects. other drugs prescribed to help are phenergan, imodium, etc etc.
My mother in law spent the last 2 years of her living -fighting grade 4 glioblastoma falciforme- with me, so I do know a bit about the course of this malady. i came to be very close with her, we had many laughing and crying moments, I miss her very much. But you kitty, you are young and that is a tremendous advantage to your favor. Eat well, and have a positive attitude, you will prevail
Kate D
Yes I do Kitty. A very close friend went through the whole crappy thing. She too wanted to end it. And she too kept on fighting. She is now glad she did. She gets to hold her first grandchild.
Hang in there, Sis.
I'm glad that you are having the strength to keep on fighting. Here I was crying, and was trying to tell my mom about it, but had to get her to read instead because I was sobbing too much. After she read it she gave me a hug, and I told her "I don't know why its bothering me so much, I don't even know her". I rarely ever cry for anyone that I don't know (the way I usually see it, every single thing on this earth is suffering at every given time, but each one still has to go on with its own life, just how it is), but somehow it just hit me (and I kept on revisiting this topic hoping that you would post again), one because you been through a lot of crap in your life, everyone has, but here you have tried to turn it around and live better, plus getting to realize yourself as you are supposed to be and then something like that trying to take all that away so soon, its like, why didn't crap like that happen when life was at its worst, then maybe it wouldn't be so bad going out. Made me recall some scary things that happened to me in recent years (vertigo-caused by overexposure to rubber chemicals, kidney stone-thought because of the location of the pain that it was my appendix, recent bad fall-ribs still hurt but thankfully seem to be healing up) where I thought, oh no, I'm on my way to becoming whole, and I'm starting to put my life back together again too, and its about to be taken away from me. I know that you are not okay, but its good to see you are determined to stick with it for at least a little while longer, maybe things will turn out okay, and if not, at least you tried.
Meg, you have a superior hart. You cry, your ry for Kitty, and for me, and for you. For all those who to no fault of their on live imprisoned
Love,
Kate D
You see Kitty you get much attention, sympathy, and love from all these kind souls. May G-d bless you and bring you peace
Kate D
Don't give up, Kitty. :icon_hug:
I have been on the edge of death a couple times now. Where the only way to live is to suffer through medical hell and pray.
I understand the desire to give up at that point and came very close to giving in when I was there.
There is no way that I can fault anouther person when the battle becomes so bad that checking out becomes an option.
Personaly I would love to see you around here for years to come. (even though you make me cry sometimes)
Whatever you chose for you in the long run I can respect and honor.
Hugz and luv,
Cyndi
Quote from: superkitty036 on May 29, 2011, 04:05:10 AM
jez!!! I am such a friggen puss! I WANT to give up so bad!!! I really really really really do!!! But....... ****, i cant, not yet anyways. i have at least two more weeeks of radiation to go, maybe as many as four. They'll take a picture of my stupid brain and then determine if i need chemo (they prolly will want me to do it). This radiation is bad enough, but chemo?!?!?! Does anyone have any friggen idea what that crap does to you?
Yup I do. My brother went throght it, radiation and chemo.
Honestly? It REALLY sucks.
Glad you didnt just check out. We are concerned and yes, we do care for you.
I hope for nothing but the best for you sister, please hang in there.
We are here if you ever need someone to talk to.
Don't give up Nicole