I'm just wondering if anyone else has gotten to the point of starting to pass, but still sees a woman when they look in the mirror.
I've posted pics here and people say I pass. I've posted voice clips and people say my voice is starting to pass too. But I can't see it in the mirror. I feel like I still look decidedly female, and sound female.
Maybe it's a confidence thing, because I'm still getting ma'am sometimes out in public, and even on the phone once. Occasionally I hear a story of how someone gendered me correctly, but not often. My friends call me "Jay" and "he", but some random guy I ended up in a group with for a project at school called me 'she'. I don't know what people think when they look at me, but I see so much girl that maybe it shows through to other people.
Does anyone else feel like this? Is there a good way to fix it?
you will get there, the longer you are on T the more you see yourself in the mirror
I had the opposite problem. I saw a guy in the mirror even when I had hair down to my butt. I have a habit of being delusional sometimes...
It will take time. Always longer than we would like but it will happen.
T is very powerful. Give it time.
also, usually other people will see you as a man, sooner then you will, strangers I mean.. sometimes you doubt yourself, even when you totally look the way you should, you still see the past and that just takes time, like Cynthia said
Yes, you will be able to see yourself as a man - it comes with confidence and time. Like Elijah said, when you pass with strangers, that gives you so much confidence and eventually you will look in the mirror and see what they see :)
Sometimes I see the man inside for a moment, but then become disillusioned by seeing the fat female body he's imprisoned in. And then other times, if I'm feeling real good and am fully dressed, I see a big guy who could stand to lose some weight but is otherwise OK.
Thanks, guys. I hope as I start passing more consistently I'll see a guy when I look in the mirror, but I still see girl no matter what I do.
Luckily most of the people around me are awesome at calling me by my name and 'he'.