So I'm sat waiting for my first therapists appointment and I'm scared to death.

[maybesoph]

I've been excited, worried and my head is blown I've never spoken face to face with anybody ever.

I'll let you know if I survive.

Wish me luck.

Sophie

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[silvertime]

Don't worry about it at all. I know that it easier said than done but your therapist will be confidential. When you are with them it is your chance to speak about how you are feeling in an environment that is non judgmental about your gender feelings. Just breath it will be ok. When I went the first time I knew it was going to be hard for me to open up. Especially about something I have thought my whole life I hated and despised. As it turns out I was trying not to confront the feelings that I have had for many years. It helps to make notes or talking points for yourself. Just something to prompt you on the key words of your feelings. It helped me and I have been in therapy and HRT for over 8 months. Take a deep breath, relax and take it one step at a time. Good luck I hope you get some relief. Keep your head up girl.

Kaylee


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[Laurie]

Hi Sophie,

  I understand that feeling you are going through Hun, but believe me it is going to be okay. Your therapist will be friendly and will probably ask why you have come to see them. Just relax, take a few deep breaths, and tell them. Be open and honest with your therapist. That will serve you and them much better than if you hold back. When you do you will probably feel relief. Relief that someone else finally knows who you are and you no longer need to hide yourself from them. You may even cry during the telling and, Hun, that is okay. I've cried a bucket full in my therapist's office. They are used to it and you will feel better afterwards.
  This meeting is mainly to get to know you better and to assess how they can best help you. And that is what they want to do, help you. But you will have to help them by letting them know who you are and what you need. You should trust your therapist and if you find you cannot then you should find one you can.
  Calm down, deep breaths and you'll have this. You can do it.

Hugs,
  Laurie

[Chelsea]

Hi Sophie, that's great news. I also was scared to death but it turned out every easy for me. I had only came out to my girlfriend at the time. The drive home after my first appointment was one of the best days of my life.  I wish you the best and you will be fine.

Hugs,
        Chelsea

[Jessica]

We all (almost all) were nervous at the first time speaking these words that have been bottled up for so long to a live person, but it will be wonderful when you do.

[BlueJaye]

I can look back now and chuckle at how scared I was going to my first therapist appointment, but at the time it was absolutely terrifying. I was about to talk to somebody I had never met before about the deepest darkest secret that I had never shared with anyone, not even my wife.

We've all been there, dear lady. You'll do great! Getting through the first meeting is the scariest, but it gets better once you get that behind you.

[Eryn T]

I'm sure everything will go well! I'm pretty nervous having my very first appointment soon, too. But, all the encouraging stories of these lovely ladies fills me such joy and hope, GOD I just feel like I need to get this out in real life, like right now!

I'm a firm believer in making the most/best of your situation. So, I don't know if you've already gone yet, but I would say like others have said, just be honest and open. Therapists are not there to judge you, they want to help you! If you try to keep things hidden, you'll only hurt yourself.

[Sno]

Hon,

Therapy is tough, not in the actual process, but in the emotional wrangles we end up putting ourselves through, beforehand, and the questions it raises after. My therapy was started to help deal with other issues (of which I have plenty), but I was terrified of disclosure. It wasn't a coming out of choice, but of necessity, as my therapist needed to understand on a fundamental level, quite how being trans affected everything, and amplified certain issues.

My fear was unfounded, as she looked at me, said "that makes sense" and moved on, like it was the most natural thing in the world...

You are going to be fine. Yes, you have just done that.you should be proud of yourself for being you.

(Hugs)


Rowan

[Tatiana 79]

 Hey Sophie

It's Perfectly Natural to be nervous thinking about going in and releasing your innermost thoughts the very first time.  if you didn't you wouldn't be human and I can honestly say I was nervous too but I found that within minutes I was comfortable really pouring it out remember these therapists do this for a living and are professional. I really think deep down that most of us like to talk about this because it's been pent-up in a so long it'll pop out just like a champagne cork does. I would like to congratulate you for taking it to this level it took me a half a century. Trust what everyone said here you'll be just fine and you will feel better on the way out guaranteed. All the anxiety that's in your head now will turn into elation and happiness you'll see be sure and let us know how you felt I'm sure we would all like to know.

Best wishes love Tatiana

[maybesoph]

Hi girls.

Just wow

You were all right I was fine and I survived.
First two minutes were the hard part sitting down and opening up to someone you don't know maybe the hardest thing I've ever done. kinda helped when her opening comment was love those jeans, which had taken a lot of courage to go buy but it was so worth it as that's another hurdle over.

But, it was like relief, joy, sorrow a LOT of tears relating to hurting loved ones and how I cope and move forward.
However even after one session I feel better and within 30 minutes of it starting the therapist was like "So, we both agree about your dysphoria and it's obvious your crying to get out and correct your mis identity. Go see a GP and get the ball rolling as that's why your here, not for anything other than for me to confirm what is obvious"

Do you know the biggest thing, for the first time in my life I'm proud of who I am and who I may become.
I've a long road ahead and a big family to think of so I'm in no rush as long as I keep taking small steps forward.

Roll on next session.

Sophie


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[pamelatransuk]

I am so glad things went so well Sophie. You made the right decision to open up and trust.

It is indeed a wonderful feeling of elation and a great weight off your shoulders.

Congratulations on starting your journey.

Hugs

Pamela

[Chelsea]

Sophie, I'm so happy for you. I know it was a good feeling to get that weight off your shoulders. Please keep us updated on your progress!

Hugs,
       Chelsea

[Northstar]

Congratulations and much love to you, Sophie!   

[maybesoph]

Sophie, I'm so happy for you. I know it was a good feeling to get that weight off your shoulders. Please keep us updated on your progress!

Hugs,
       Chelsea

Hi Chelsea.

Of course I will, I've way too many questions to ask to be quiet.

Sophie

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[Laurie]

Hi Sophie,

  Congrats girl you have taken a difficult step and it turned out wonderfully for you. Now, keep that feeling going by following orders and go see your GP! Be open with them too, tell them what you would like to do. Let them know if you want to keep things slow for a bit if that is your desire, if not let them know otherwise. Listen to their suggestions, but remember you are the one that knows what you want to do.
  I like your attitude about looking forward to your next session. You should be. Even if she says or asks you to do something that bothers you, you should still want to see her again to at least discuss how it made you feel as long as what she asks is not improper. I was mad at mine for 2 weeks and thought of skipping my next appointment. But I went and told him I had been angry about what he asked and that I thought of not coming. What did he do? He thanked me and told me my telling him helped him understand me better, He also explained that I may not always like what he says or asks me to do but it would be asked or said with my best interest in mind.  Therapists are there to help us Soph.
  I am happy and proud that you went and did it right girl.

Hugs,
  Laurie

[maybesoph]

Hi Sophie,

  Congrats girl you have taken a difficult step and it turned out wonderfully for you. Now, keep that feeling going by following orders and go see your GP! Be open with them too, tell them what you would like to do. Let them know if you want to keep things slow for a bit if that is your desire, if not, let them know otherwise. Listen to their suggestions but remember, you are the one that knows what you want to do.
  I like your attitude about looking forward to your next session. You should be. Even if she says or asks you to do something that bothers you, you should still want to see her again to at least discuss how it made you feel as long as what she asks is not improper. I was mad at mine for 2 weeks and thought of skipping my next appointment. But I went and told him I had been angry about what he asked and that I thought of not coming. What did he do? He thanked me and told me my telling him helped him understand me better, He also explained that I may not always like what he says or asks me to do but it would be asked or said with my best interest in mind.  Therapists are there to help us Soph.
  I am happy and proud that you went and did it right girl.

Hugs,
  Laurie

Hi Laurie.

Thankyou for the kind words and wisdom, she's already told me that the next session will be posing some questions that may seem awkward, but I've nothing to hide or fear she can ask away.
Im seeing the GP next Thursday and I've just emailed genderGP, I'm not rushing things although I don't really want to wait two years or more for a GIC appointment before even discussing HRT.
I'm just so ready now in my mind and body that I know where I want to be, and don't wanna wait that long to get on hormones.

Life's short I want to live it.

Soph



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