New song added to my transition soundtrack. Tool - Forty-six & 2:
Join in my 
Join in my child 
and listen ...
Digging through 
My old numb shadow
My shadow's 
Shedding skin 
and I've been picking 
scabs again. 
I'm down 
digging through 
my old muscles 
for a clue. 
I've been crawling on my belly 
clearing out what could've been. 
I've been wallowing in my own confused 
and insecure delusions 
for a piece to cross me over 
or a word to guide me in. 
I wanna feel the changes coming down. 
I wanna know what I've been hiding 
in (my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming through my shadow. 
My shadow's 
shedding skin. 
I've been picking 
my scabs again. 
Join in my
Join in my child,
my shadow moves,
closer to me
I've been crawling on my belly 
clearing out what could've been 
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic, 
insecure delusions. 
I wanna feel the change consume me, 
feel the outside turning in. 
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and 
cleansing I've endured in,
(my shadow. 2x)
Change is coming. 
Now is my time. 
Listen to my muscle memory. 
Contemplate what I've been clinging to. 
Forty-six and two ahead of me. 
I, 
choose to live and to, 
grow, 
take and give and to, 
move, 
learn and love and to, 
cry, 
kill and die and to, 
be, 
paranoid and to, 
lie, 
hate and fear and to, 
do,
what it takes to move through. 
I choose to live and to, 
lie, 
kill and give and to, 
die, 
learn and love and to, 
do, 
what it takes to step through. 
See my shadow changing, 
stretching up and over me 
soften this old armor. 
Hoping I can clear the way by 
stepping through my shadow, 
coming out the other side. 
Step into the shadow. 
Forty six and two
are just ahead of me.