Woke up from a very real dream and realized I was naturally female in the dream.
This was a first for me, and one I've been wanting a very long time.
In the dream I was in Seoul Korea (I will actually be there 2 weeks from now getting voice surgery, and have been to Seoul many times.) In the dream I was walking down the street not far from the VFS clinic. Coffee shops, people enjoying a sunny day, a comfortable smaller road in the big city. A perfect 1968 Mercury Cougar was parked in front of a cafe, I stopped to admire it (and quite odd - I've never seen a car like that in Korea). And then I noticed people looking at me. A few were giggling.
Dysphoria? A nightmare recalling my fearful initial ventures in public a few short years ago?
Nope. When I noticed people laughing at me I looked at myself in the car window and saw... there I was on a busy street in Seoul in my bathrobe and slippers, the white bathrobe I received at Meltzer's clinic for GCS with Dr. Ley. I realized I needed to go back and change into a skirt and blouse. And that was my only thought - stop being absent minded, get out of this fuzzy bathrobe and change into a skirt and blouse, then come back to the same neighborhood.
It didn't occur to me until I woke up: my only embarrassment and hesitation was from wandering around mid day in a bathrobe.
My mother is from Japan. She was an English major in college. When she was teaching me Japanese in the early 1970s she explained a major milestone was when she had her first dream where every thought and interaction was in English. At that point she knew she wasn't exploring a new language, she was now bilingual.
I wish this for every one of us who has this as a goal. Go live your dreams, even if that involves wandering around Seoul in a bathrobe.
