Emma1017 ... Which hurts less - Volume Two

[davina61]

They dug up a statue at Vinda what ever they call it on the wall, a good 2 ft tall and in good condition.

[Emma1017]

They've got a great museum and the site is open to the public.

I loved when the school kids showed up. The amateur teachers would let the kids go to the gift shop first. Once the boys bought the plastic swords it was game over. 

[Emma1017]

I met with my therapist for the first time in over a month.  I asked her if I am at peace with my gender reality, why do I have this need to share photos?

Her response was: "That part of you very much wants/needs to be seen. Like every other human being."

GD never leaves you alone, but the intensity diminishes with every surrender to it.

I should know better at this point.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Its lovely that you share your photos as can see your joy in them and you always look amazing. I told my therapist that I sometimes feel guilty / wrong sharing selfies too often. She challenged that and could find no reason we shouldn't have that pride in who we are and to share that.

Sending love and hugs x

[Emma1017]

Had a typical transgender love/hate day.  My family went to a our best friends daughters wedding. The love, friendship, and good time was rampant. 

Intertwined with the evening was my absolute hatred of the suit and tie I was wearing, my jealousy of how beautiful the women looked and my recognition that I would be rejected by many if I came out...

When those negative thoughts started to take hold, I did what I had to...I got up and danced!

Works every time!

Who wants to spend time in a pity party?

[Stottie Girl]

That's the spirit Emma! I know what you mean about the envy at weddings. I would love to go as Sarah. I guess I need some friends first though or I'll just have to become a wedding crasher!

I would genuinely love to be a bride one day too!

People might surprise you though, you never really know how someone will react.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Awww Emma I can't imagine how that felt and know for sure I could not have handled that like you managed to. Sending you all my love and hugs as know that would have taken a lot from you. 🥰🫂

[Emma1017]

On Monday, we are heading upstate to Saratoga, New York, for five days.  They have summer horse racing, and the town has that Adirondack cool vibe.  That's a laid-back woods, mountains, and lakes feel. 

People don't realize that 1/3 of NY State is the Adirondack State Park.  It's huge.  I need to get away from the city and lose some money betting on horses with stupid names.  The dumber, the better!

[ChrissyRyan]

On Monday, we are heading upstate to Saratoga, New York, for five days.  They have summer horse racing, and the town has that Adirondack cool vibe.  That's a laid-back woods, mountains, and lakes feel. 

People don't realize that 1/3 of NY State is the Adirondack State Park.  It's huge.  I need to get away from the city and lose some money betting on horses with stupid names.  The dumber, the better!

The water up there tastes good.  I visited the city, nice.  I did not visit the race track.


I find it interesting that a number of cities and rivers in that part of the country have names that end in
"-kill".  It has to do with the Dutch. 

[Lori Dee ✅]

I need to get away from the city and lose some money betting on horses with stupid names.  The dumber, the better!

When I lived in Illinois, my mother-in-law lived in Kentucky, and she loved the races. Every year, her Mother's Day present was opening day at Arlington, near Chicago. She didn't care about stats or names; she always bet on the gray horse. And if it lost, it was never the horse's fault. She always blamed the jockey.

[Emma1017]

Chrissy, the Dutch had NYS first.  Their names are everywhere.  I live in Brooklyn, an anglicized version of Breukelen, a small town in the Netherlands.

Lori, I always bring a specific amount of money I know I am going to lose, about one hour's worth of therapy time.  I figure it has the same purpose.

OK, I had a funny moment this morning that only you all would appreciate.  I was sorting through one of my clothing drawers and came across a jock strap...the ghost of gender past.  Given that I had an orchiectomy, it gave me a good laugh!

[Emma1017]

I hate the summertime.  The heat and humidity make life unbearable. Give me sweater weather and a good fireplace any time!  But i should complain.  At least we are getting a lot of rain.

I feel so sorry for  Western United States (and Canada) between the droughts and fire, it's insane.

It's also crazy in Europe! The Rhine and Danube are at historic lows and both France and Spain are tinder boxes.

Hmmmn, is the world getting warmer?

[Lori Dee ✅]

I feel so sorry for  Western United States (and Canada) between the droughts and fire, it's insane.

It's also crazy in Europe! The Rhine and Danube are at historic lows and both France and Spain are tinder boxes.

Hmmmn, is the world getting warmer?

I was thinking about this yesterday. We have record heat all over the Northern Hemisphere: the US, Canada, Europe, and Asia. Drought and wildfires. Rivers running dry.

And with all of the forests burning, and it takes many years to replace them, who will be making our toilet paper until then?

Start stocking up on bottled water and TP before the rest of the world realizes what happened.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I hope this year is an exceptional year for weather rather than a new normal. Can't say I'm optimistic though. But can at least hope.

[Emma1017]

Lori, I'm glad I bought a bidet during Covid!

Charlotte, I think we have thrown out the concept of normal.

We're having my niece, her husband and their young kids for the weekend.  Really looking forward to it.  My wife made a patch of chocolate cookies and there is no rain in sight.  Their visits are always fun.

Today is the day of my wife's prepping stress.  Just waiting for my list...😁