Post Op Nightmares

[Sandy]

I and others have remarked about post surgical vivid or disturbing dreams where what was changed came back.

While I had some within the first couple of months following surgery, they have not returned.

Feel free to talk about your episodes too.

-Sandy

[Cindy ✅]

Thanks Sandy for bringing this up.

Can I also ask if people have pre-op nightmares as well? And I don't mean the Oh my G I'm having surgery. What if anything comes up in your dreams pre-op. Because I have outing nightmares. Horrible dreams were I am me and suddenly I'm not, just a guy in a dress. Sorry feel free to reject, it is your thread.

Cindy

[kyril]

I think my primary dysphoria-related nightmares are the bleeding ones. The first is waking up in a strange place in a pool of blood from between my legs and discovering that I've been castrated. The second is standing up (in class or in some other public setting) to discover that my pants are soaked with blood. And blood (menstrual/castration-induced blood, I seem to associate the two in my dreams) figures prominently in my other nightmares too.

I don't seem to have nightmares about my chest, it's just not there in my dreams. I hope I don't start dreaming about it after surgery.

[K8]

I've had periods of my life where I had terrible nightmares.  Thankfully those have been gone for a while. 

For years (decades?) I've had several dreams that I would have several times a year that were similar or on the same theme.  They were dreams where I was struggling to do something.  I would always wake up still struggling.  Once I began living as Kate, those dreams gradually began resolving themselves.  The struggle to accomplish whatever became easier.  Finally, several months ago, in one of the main ones I accomplished the task that I had never before been able to do.  I woke up amazed that I had finally done it.  Some of the other irresolvable dreams gradually resolved themselves, too.  (That's got to mean something!)

Since the surgery I've had a couple of dreams where I had either a penis or something like one.  I expect those to fade, too, as I adjust to my new body.  (My new wonderful body.)  I would guess that it is just my brain adjusting to the new reality.

- Kate

[Janet_Girl]

I did not vote because I am still pre-op, post-orchie.  But I have been having dreams where I am an in between creature ( which of course bodily I am ) and I dread those dreams.  It isn't so much what I am doing in the dreams as I am this creature.

[gothique11]

I have from time to time. I get weird dreams all of the time, too -- but I always have. I remember this one time I had a dream about zombies covered with zombie penises all over them, and if they bit you, you'd grow boils in which zombie penises would appear (and of course, you'd be a zombie). I was running around shooting and chopping the penis zombies up, trying to not let them get me. I didn't want a penis growing back. LOL

[Northern Jane]

Only once, a year or so after surgery and settling into a wonderful life, I had a nightmare that it had all been a dream - I woke up screaming and in a cold sweat.

The dream never came back.

[jesse]

covers ears not going here not going here not goooing here

[FairyGirl]

I had nightmares for 3-4 days following surgery. They were bizarre, vivid, scary and upsetting. Luckily I don't remember the details much now. They were about my penis and sharp instruments or knives. I wonder now if it was my subconscious coping with the surgery.

Heavy duty painkillers, especially morphine, can cause nightmares in and of themselves. Combined with the physical trauma of SRS that seems a likely explanation.

[Ms.Behavin]

I had one dream, gee about a  year post op, where the inny wanted to be and outty and started pushing out.....Weird strange dream but only once and SO glad it was just a dream