Well, A few more therapy sessions under my belt, and i'm not sure what i'm doing anymore.
Well, let me rephrase that, I know I'm doing the right thing, but I can't DO anything. For those of you who don't know, i'm currently serving my country, which means I can't be to public about who I am. It also restricts what I can do, I'm juggaling things as it is to just see a therapist.
But my biggest beef is that I can't dress, practice, or really do anything to prepare myself for transition. It is making me feel like i'm closed in and can't get out.
I of course talked to my therapist and he suggests that antideppresents might be a good thing and to talk to the military shrink about them, carefully.
So now i'm battling deppresion once again, I really have no friends right now, they are all on the comfort. I can't get out much due to my hectic schedule, and really all I seem to do is eat, sleep, work, and videogames. Not healthy.
I don't know, if I get this discouraged this easily, will I ever make it to the end? Gah, what a morbid thought. But the one bright side is i've decided for my own sanity to take some of the transition money i've been saving and go buy a guitar. I always feel happy whan I play, and maybe I can get good enough to earn some extra change by playing on a street corner or in the metro.
I just gotta get out of this funk, anyone have some suggestions?