Quote from: Anindya on April 25, 2013, 08:29:05 AM
Tall, well six foot and 160 pounds in weight and undeveloped, some of the stuff that was supposed to happen in puberty didn't- chest didn't expand out, so an adolescent look, but long thin arms and no muscle development. I am 44 now and still people younger than me talk down to me as they think I am younger than they, where most believe me to be in my mid to late twenties or at worst early thirties but no way anywhere near my true age.
But this trans stuff, it is constantly in my mind but it's not that I wish to live as a woman because the way I do live is already a bit of both where I do many feminine things regards body care and various other what is usually thought of as feminine activities where some things more now than in the past because well I know what I am at last as it was only in the last few years I had the karyotype and so I am allowing my natural self at last as what I felt compelled to do was not deviant at all, it was just me. But one thing is in my mind of the trans stuff is for some obscure reason I desire breasts, not hefty ones but more the smaller size as I see the growing of those to make me physically what I feel to be as well, what I guess to be as is in between male and female, where I am passive to both genders, I desire to help others as it seems it is my worth.
But I do have some learning difficulties, physically, what I call directionally stupid-dyspraxia, some attention deficit and some communicational difficulties where asperger's syndrome has been diagnosed in the past, but I know it is not AS, it is just something that sometimes comes with that extra x. But my IQ has been measured at 139 and my EQ as above average.
But @ Joanna Dark and others, communication is good, people write on topic or off because they feel the need to say and so I say, feel free to say, you are welcome as ar as I am concerned.
Hi All,
Interested reading the above quote. I feel many of the same things. As part of determining my ability to have children this year, I found the answer to strongly no, and then "oh by the way, your XXY"
So as per the poster above, suddenly I made sense, my feelings and approaches to life. Do I feel like a man or a woman, well no neither really, something in between yes.
I go through stages of wanting to feel more female. In the past I bought female clothes, feeling terribly embarrassed about it, saying that they are a gift for.... any way, ebay has changed that. The need is there for a while then passes.
For some reason I also crave breasts, not sure why either, always imagined having a c cup, and I am not sure why that size either, just seems right.
When my results came in with the gene test, my testosterone was 3, when the healthy range is 8 to 32. In the last 12 months I have suffered depression, spontaneous crying. Now I am on my second shot of Testosterone, which has made some difference, psychologically some balance, but I think I liked it better when I didn't get stubble on face every day.
In all this, I am not sure that my wife really understands me. When we met she thought that I was Gay, tall good skin, young looking. Not the case. However, I am not the real man that she was expecting either. Mainly I want her to love me, for me, plain and simple.
Good evening to all.