okay so I've been reading around the posts here a lot, and I haven't been a member until just now. I am bisexual but who isn't bisexual nowadays, that's not really saying much. That's not even important to me. And I know other people who really commit to the change they do anything for it, and maybe its a mixture of being scared and poor, but I think like what if something goes wrong its better not to because what if. its fear and I know that and thinking what people will think. the thing is I hear other people talk about it like its so important they cant function without it. and I do get sad about it and it stays in my mind but I'm not driven crazy about it, and that makes me doubt weather I want it for real or not. I'm the kind of person that is like I wont put makeup because why would I I'm a guy, or why dress in that I'm a guy and I feel left out and I think why that's so dumb. and of course I look at myself and think I'll never be anything more than a guy I talk like a guy I look like a guy, so I understand I prefer a more feminine body and face that doesn't exactly mean I want to go through with anything and then I think further into it,when it comes to my genitals, I don't really care about it. I know the change would make me feel good about myself, its been on my mind for years when I work out I imagine looking sexy not buff, how normal are these feeling and does anyone feel that way and where do I fit in. I hope someone can clear my mind about everything a little bit. I'm trying to write this in secret cause, although my partner wouldn't mind if I told m but I don't want to right now