Haha ishtar don't worry it took me a while to get enough to pm, its all good
Depression swallowed me whole a few years back, shattered everything i thought i new about my life and what i needed and wanted. I took the long road, just let myself fall into it and experience it fully, which is how i unearthed my trans-identity, so i wouldn't change a thing
It still pulls at me every now and then, i fully recognize its a long process now, not something you can fix in a snap.
If you every need to talk, feel free to message me or just reach out, there's always someone who will help, especially in a place like this, considering everyone's shared experiences
Congratulations on reaching the point of knowing friend!
As to your first question, I don't feel i have excepted it yet, but i believe i will be able to. Every aspect of my past is a part of who i am, i'm not going to turn my back on it, this is just the next chapter in my ever expanding life
My transexuality is much the same, its who i am. It will be hard if my family isn't accepting, but that remains to be seen,i will be my full self regardless in the long run, i know first hand what life is like when your aren't embracing your whole self and i won't go back to that
Fertility. Yes i am. I love kids i've got two nephew's and i can see what a joy they are to their parents and everyone around them. I wouldn't mind being a parent but i've always felt funny about having kids that were biologically mine, just didn't feel right, now it makes more sense as to why. If i choose the become a parent in the future i would probably adopt. That said, if i can afford to store some sperm now before my transition that would be good. Keeps the option there if i ever do want it. I don't think i would be upset if i didn't though.
Misfit status. Well i've felt like a misfit my whole life, something has always been off, i felt a heightened sense of judgement around every interaction i can remember from family to friends to completely strangers. I'm sure most of the time it was me projecting my anxieties onto others and then reacting to that, but that process gives off a weird vibe that i think made people feel something was a bit odd about me. So back to the question, i can accept it. At least i now know who i am and would feel the subtle uneasiness of others around me was justified. Just thinking about it brims me with confidence. It would be a huge weight lifted off my shoulders
Good questions, thankyou! What are your thoughts on them for yourself?
All the very best to you too
