Dysphoria , How would you rate it's impact on your daily life

[JLT1]

Good question.  I was actually struggling with that just a couple hours ago....

I live and work as Jennifer.  I have transitioned.  I've had FFS and an orchi.  SRS is three months out.  I am happier than I have ever been..well, most of the time.

I'm up at my resort in Northern MN this weekend.  We are closed for the winter but I have one cabin that I can heat up and use for a weekend.  I came up because I have some legal things to go through up here on Monday. 

So, I haven't bought any cold weather work outside gear in a couple of years.  I didn't think anything about putting on a sports bra and my old boy work  clothes so that I can get some maintenance done while I'm here (small place).  Ugh!!!  That was dumb!  Dysphoria hit like a ton of bricks.  I almost started crying. I was shaking.  I wore these things to hide my true self.  What am I doing wearing them now?  I want my own clothes.  They will only be a little different and I'll be doing the same things but I won't be hiding.   I wasn't ready for that....

Hugs,

Jen   

[Miss_Bungle1991]

1-2 these days.

[stephaniec]

Good question.  I was actually struggling with that just a couple hours ago....

I live and work as Jennifer.  I have transitioned.  I've had FFS and an orchi.  SRS is three months out.  I am happier than I have ever been..well, most of the time.

I'm up at my resort in Northern MN this weekend.  We are closed for the winter but I have one cabin that I can heat up and use for a weekend.  I came up because I have some legal things to go through up here on Monday. 

So, I haven't bought any cold weather work outside gear in a couple of years.  I didn't think anything about putting on a sports bra and my old boy work  clothes so that I can get some maintenance done while I'm here (small place).  Ugh!!!  That was dumb!  Dysphoria hit like a ton of bricks.  I almost started crying. I was shaking.  I wore these things to hide my true self.  What am I doing wearing them now?  I want my own clothes.  They will only be a little different and I'll be doing the same things but I won't be hiding.   I wasn't ready for that....

Hugs,

Jen   

I have two pair of my old work jeans left to get rid of, I use to use them in case my good stuff was dirty , now every time I pass by them this awful sense of bad vibes jumps at me. Must get rid of.

[BunnyBee]

One or two now.  Was once a 10.  Transition works.

[Cin]

6-7 from 7 am to 7 pm
8-9 from 7 pm to 7 am
4-5 when I keep myself really busy or am under work related pressure.
10 once every 15 days or so.

[Jean24]

I put 7-8. Right now it's definitely a 10 though, which explains why I'm on Susan's. I don't often let myself think about sex, reproduction, circumcision, motherhood, SRS, the male juice charging through my veins, etc. It just becomes overwhelming because you realize that not only have you been screwed but that nodoby who can do anything gives a damn.