I "experimented" with transitioning twice in my early 20's. Both times ending it, opting to live as a normalish male. While it is so easy now to look back and say could have, would have, should have, I know in my heart of hearts how badly it would have turned out if I did follow through.
Emotionally, I was a cripple. No way would I have had the inner strength, nor the ability to learn or develop the skills, or the skin, you need to go through a full transition. However, I also consider myself blessed I have not signed up for the Transition or Die club. Came close a few times, but never putting pen to paper. So perhaps that is why I can say following through would have ended badly, I had options. Still sort of ended.... not badly, but not ideally either.
I have no doubt I would not be 1/2 the person I am today, accomplished so many amazing things in my life, and now strong enough and healthy enough to very seriously consider and work towards a full transition