Quote from: Obfuskatie on June 26, 2015, 11:09:43 AM
Try to think of it this way; you were born your chosen gender, it's making the necessary adjustments to your body and perspective that was hard. AMAB and AFAB are only as significant as a cursory glance usually. There's plenty of scientific evidence supporting gender as immutable as sexual orientation. Neither are socialized.
There's nothing wrong with being stealth, and it can be necessary for safety purposes in some places. I wish there weren't so many close minded jerks, but they don't get to dictate how I feel about my body. I feel like shame is a significant motivating factor for wanting to blend in, but there's no other case where kind people would suggest for you set yourself aside and hide key aspects to yourself that have colored your experiences and perspectives.
For me, the whole point of my transition is because I couldn't keep lying to myself and others. I felt like no one knew me, because I didn't let them. I couldn't endure it alone anymore, even though I was terrified of rejection. But that's me, and everyone has their own story and own truth. I just hope y'all remember to be kind to yourselves too, which is still one of the harder things for me.
Oh, and I'm glad you agree Jenny. Sometimes I just get frustrated with some of the pessimism much of us jaded people engage in. I'd rather seem naive and cling to optimism than give up, simply because I like who I am better when I can hope and wish and dream. I wouldn't be where I am today without them.
Hugs,
- Katie
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Hold on to that optimism it will serve you well I've found.
It is possible not to get jaded - and it is possible to live in a way which does not mark one out but is authentic.
I have lost track of the number of people who've tried to tell me that as someone openly trans I'll never get on, I'll never have a family, I'll never manage to do this that or the other. When people do this now I feel like the Queen in Lewis Carolls Alice in Wonderland
"Alice laughed. 'There's no use trying,' she said. 'One can't believe impossible things.'
I daresay you haven't had much practice,' said the Queen. 'When I was your age, I always did it for half-an-hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast. There goes the shawl again!"For truly I have not been particularly stealthy and yet I have been fully accepted as a woman, I enjoy a rich social life, I have more friends in influential positions than I can keep up with, I've enjoyed a stellar and varied career... in short I spent my whole life doing things that people insist are impossible, because I don't for one second believe that they are. They are only impossible if someone is fool enough to believe that.
As you say there are a few situations in which discretion is necessary for self preservation, but where I have found myself in such situations I have invested every fiber of my being in getting out without delay. If people wish to be jerks they can do so without me, and I am arrogant enough to believe that in the longterm it will be their loss not mine.
I do not have a pessimistic cell in my body. My experience is that things ALWAYS do work out, if you only have the faith and determination to work with events and carpe diem! Fortune favours the brave, you get no points for being stupid, timid, or lazy!
Finally as I have said before we must all learn to love who and waht we are, because when the chips are down thats all we really have. Anything else is an illusion and will fail us. The truth, is real and dependable, what we become when we love and accept ourselves truly, is a shining beacon of light and hope, and most people find that attractive.
So let your lights shine out! Be who you are. It really is the best way. I have tested this advice to destruction over 30 years and I would not give it if I was not confident in it. When you live in the truth, the universe does test your resolve from time to time, but if you stand firm and pass the test, it also rewards you richly.
I would not swap my life for anyone else's, be they trans or cis.