To put a long story short, I don't have any real friends x.x
Everybody else has friends already and I can't seem to fit in anywhere.
Everybody knows me and that I am not going to talk to them and it would be weird if I tried.
I am jealous of everyone. I am jealous when I hear they had a nice day with their friends. I am jealous when I see they hug each other. I am jealous when I see they do everything together, and they laugh and smile.
I want to have somebody to spend my time with too. Who I can talk to about all my worries and who would hug me when I am sad. I want to be able to have somebody to hang out with, to take silly photos with. I want to have a nice time.
I wasted all of my childhood, I am 17 and I did nothing. I never had friends, I never hang out with anybody, there goes all of my precious youth. Life can only get a lot harder from this point on, I am an adult very soon.
I can't stand being alone anymore and I can't manage to get out of this situation and I am super shy.
And here I go crying again. I cry everytime I think about how I wasted my life...
Anyway, I just felt like getting it out of my mind since I obviously don't really have anyone to talk to x.x